In short, I'm currently looking for a flexible physical component with an implied emotional component in a way that I like to balance. Maybe this is not possible- this idea of some physical activity that's not entirely consistent but is more than nothing.
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I'm currently looking into personal training, because I don't want to be part of a gym during covid time. I also don't want to join a gym right now because I don't feel I'd want to use it enough. Ironically, I think being part of a gym would afford me the opportunity to have a trainer more sporadically rather than consistently.
So, maybe since I want convenience over consistency, a personal trainer won't want to work with me unless they can't get someone else even if I'm willing to schedule my sessions sporadically months in advance?
I know that joining a gym would afford that option more but I don't feel like I want to be part of a gym right now because of covid and I would feel like I'm just wasting my money.
Since covid started, I've been doing 100 sit-ups a day. I know it isn't much, but it's better than what I was doing before, lol.
When I was walking to work when I had to go to the office, I probably walked about 1 mile total. It certainly didn't hurt, but I don't feel walking helped me that much if at all. Last year, I walked/ran 14 miles in a day one time. When I was walking, I was fine. My legs have some strength. So maybe I should be trying to jog/run instead since I feel like walking doesn't do much for me?
I want to stay relatively/slightly active, but I don't want it to become my life. I think it's possible to obtain all these things, but maybe I'm asking for too much if I don't go at it totally on my own or just throw money out that I won't really get the benefit for?
On another forum, a poster said I needed to focus on diet and consistency. In addition to this, apparently I wasn't drinking enough water, and lacking the energy to keep doing the exercises so consistently. So, I wasn't getting happy or feeling good like people would say you feel after an exercise. I think there are so many things like this that get in the way. I feel like I'm not able to find an in-between where I want to be slightly active but not make it my life. I think it's possible, but not easy. I may need to do it on my own. I don't know if most personal trainers are okay with a lack of consistency unless they don't have a lot of clients.
I was in a dodgeball league before covid. While the activity was good for me, and my stamina slowly built up, I didn't enjoy the league itself. It lacked personality for building anything socially for me. I couldn't "compete" with cliques of people that knew each other since childhood and that didn't want anyone else in. I stuck around for a decent amount of time and tried to build this and that. There were a few other league sports I tried. Even if I was able to assert myself in a conversation, even if I was a bit stronger than a few of my teammates, it didn't matter. It's like I'm a female for those females or I just didn't know this person or that. Or this person has something personal in their own lives that makes them hold back. Or these two people are married and don't want to be around a single person.
I've tried to do this for a variety of activities on the active outstretch and on non-physical aspects as well before and during that as well.
There's a part of me that just wants to be accepted for me, and just for people to care about each other more. I don't think there's enough of this.
I want to go more at my own pace. But maybe what I want is just not possible unless I'm doing it all for myself. I know if I do things myself, it won't be as good. But I might be happier because this might be the new balance that I need in my life. This way, when things come up, I can more easily stay flexible in making time for people/events that can/might matter for me.
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I'm currently looking into personal training, because I don't want to be part of a gym during covid time. I also don't want to join a gym right now because I don't feel I'd want to use it enough. Ironically, I think being part of a gym would afford me the opportunity to have a trainer more sporadically rather than consistently.
So, maybe since I want convenience over consistency, a personal trainer won't want to work with me unless they can't get someone else even if I'm willing to schedule my sessions sporadically months in advance?
I know that joining a gym would afford that option more but I don't feel like I want to be part of a gym right now because of covid and I would feel like I'm just wasting my money.
Since covid started, I've been doing 100 sit-ups a day. I know it isn't much, but it's better than what I was doing before, lol.
When I was walking to work when I had to go to the office, I probably walked about 1 mile total. It certainly didn't hurt, but I don't feel walking helped me that much if at all. Last year, I walked/ran 14 miles in a day one time. When I was walking, I was fine. My legs have some strength. So maybe I should be trying to jog/run instead since I feel like walking doesn't do much for me?
I want to stay relatively/slightly active, but I don't want it to become my life. I think it's possible to obtain all these things, but maybe I'm asking for too much if I don't go at it totally on my own or just throw money out that I won't really get the benefit for?
On another forum, a poster said I needed to focus on diet and consistency. In addition to this, apparently I wasn't drinking enough water, and lacking the energy to keep doing the exercises so consistently. So, I wasn't getting happy or feeling good like people would say you feel after an exercise. I think there are so many things like this that get in the way. I feel like I'm not able to find an in-between where I want to be slightly active but not make it my life. I think it's possible, but not easy. I may need to do it on my own. I don't know if most personal trainers are okay with a lack of consistency unless they don't have a lot of clients.
I was in a dodgeball league before covid. While the activity was good for me, and my stamina slowly built up, I didn't enjoy the league itself. It lacked personality for building anything socially for me. I couldn't "compete" with cliques of people that knew each other since childhood and that didn't want anyone else in. I stuck around for a decent amount of time and tried to build this and that. There were a few other league sports I tried. Even if I was able to assert myself in a conversation, even if I was a bit stronger than a few of my teammates, it didn't matter. It's like I'm a female for those females or I just didn't know this person or that. Or this person has something personal in their own lives that makes them hold back. Or these two people are married and don't want to be around a single person.
I've tried to do this for a variety of activities on the active outstretch and on non-physical aspects as well before and during that as well.
There's a part of me that just wants to be accepted for me, and just for people to care about each other more. I don't think there's enough of this.
I want to go more at my own pace. But maybe what I want is just not possible unless I'm doing it all for myself. I know if I do things myself, it won't be as good. But I might be happier because this might be the new balance that I need in my life. This way, when things come up, I can more easily stay flexible in making time for people/events that can/might matter for me.
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