Having both autism and adhd is so darn difficult! It feels like I am never understood at times. Trust me, autism and adhd do NOT mix. They are both heavily misunderstood neurological conditions, and I just happen to have both. Whoop-dee-doo.
Ain't life just great?
There are some days when it seems my ADHD is more active then my autism, and I'm in a constant state of being confused and/or not being able to pay attention for more than 4 seconds, and then there are some days when it seems my autism is more active and then my anxiety levels rise to an incredible amount, I am scared of talking to people in fear of being completely misinterpreted as an awful person, and my clothes suddenly irritate me even more, making me constantly fight the urge to start stripping naked (which can distract me from everything else that is happening around me sometimes). The days when it seems my autism and adhd are equally active are still pretty difficult.
I have plans to make my adult life easier, such as moving to a more nudist-friendly neighborhood. Ever since I heard about naturist colonies and communities, naturism appealed to me. Especially considering that there is an abundant amount of naturist communities and nude beaches in Florida. If any of you are American or at least seen a map of the U.S., you can tell that Florida isn't too far from South Carolina, which is the state I currently live in.
There are even shooting ranges in Florida that allow nudity! This is great, because, despite me not being old enough to own even a rifle (a rifle purchase in the U.S. requires you to be 18+, and I am only 16), I am still quite the gun person.
Also, my brother and his GF are moving to Florida, so I will have a family member a convenient distance away in case I start missing my family too much if I do end up moving to Florida just for the naturist communities there.
I wish we live in a world where nudity is socially acceptable everywhere. I just freaking hate clothes. And there are only very few types of clothes that I actually like, and my height (I am 5' 11" and still growing) already makes finding clothes for me difficult enough!
My social anxiety also gets pretty bad. It sometimes even feels like people are waiting for the moment when I screw up while I'm talking to them. This ties back to me saying I have a fear of being misinterpreted as an awful person. It's just hard.
Also, my sister has an incredibly low amount of patience, and somehow thinks that she knows more about my own autism than I do, and all because she has a psychology minor. She always does that when she gets into arguments and starts yelling at me for things that I do that annoy her, despite her already knowing that I don't do those things with the intent of annoying anybody at all. For a senior in college, she is quite immature. IDK if this changes anything, but she has ADD. And kinda something going on with her English major and psychology minor. She even fails to understand the concept of humor, mostly because she has none at all and is often a killjoy whenever I make any type of joke she sees offensive in some way or another. For example, I was watching a video about social media posts that were written in "Engrish" (essential English so bad, it's obvious it's from somebody who is a non-native speaker).
Here is essentially how it went (S=Sister, if you can't figure that out):
Sister: Engrish is racist.
Me: How is Engrish racist?
S: Becuase it makes fun of Chinese people's accents.
Me: I don't see any Chinese people complaining. Stop being a killjoy and speaking for other people despite not having a clue what their opinions are (our entire family is white, BTW). Also, not my fault that you don't understand satire at all, despite being a senior in college with an English major.
S: No, me being an English major means that I do have a complete understanding of satire. Do you understand satire?
Me: Yes, yes I do. In fact, that is the style of comedy that I am into.
S: Is that so? Explain satire to me, then?
Me: I shouldn't have to explain satire to you, you're the English major. You should know how humor works.
SMH. My sister is so gosh-darn annoying sometimes. She thinks that she can tell me what kinds of jokes I can make. I am a 16 year-old-boy. I tell jokes that can sometimes be on the more offensive side. That's what teenagers do. She should learn to deal with it. The world isn't just gonna conform to her world view just because she wants it to.
Anyways, I am getting tired, and it is 9pm where I live right now. Sorry that this post was kinda all over the place. As I said, I am getting tired. I should probably get off the computer soon.
Ain't life just great?
There are some days when it seems my ADHD is more active then my autism, and I'm in a constant state of being confused and/or not being able to pay attention for more than 4 seconds, and then there are some days when it seems my autism is more active and then my anxiety levels rise to an incredible amount, I am scared of talking to people in fear of being completely misinterpreted as an awful person, and my clothes suddenly irritate me even more, making me constantly fight the urge to start stripping naked (which can distract me from everything else that is happening around me sometimes). The days when it seems my autism and adhd are equally active are still pretty difficult.
I have plans to make my adult life easier, such as moving to a more nudist-friendly neighborhood. Ever since I heard about naturist colonies and communities, naturism appealed to me. Especially considering that there is an abundant amount of naturist communities and nude beaches in Florida. If any of you are American or at least seen a map of the U.S., you can tell that Florida isn't too far from South Carolina, which is the state I currently live in.
There are even shooting ranges in Florida that allow nudity! This is great, because, despite me not being old enough to own even a rifle (a rifle purchase in the U.S. requires you to be 18+, and I am only 16), I am still quite the gun person.
Also, my brother and his GF are moving to Florida, so I will have a family member a convenient distance away in case I start missing my family too much if I do end up moving to Florida just for the naturist communities there.
I wish we live in a world where nudity is socially acceptable everywhere. I just freaking hate clothes. And there are only very few types of clothes that I actually like, and my height (I am 5' 11" and still growing) already makes finding clothes for me difficult enough!
My social anxiety also gets pretty bad. It sometimes even feels like people are waiting for the moment when I screw up while I'm talking to them. This ties back to me saying I have a fear of being misinterpreted as an awful person. It's just hard.
Also, my sister has an incredibly low amount of patience, and somehow thinks that she knows more about my own autism than I do, and all because she has a psychology minor. She always does that when she gets into arguments and starts yelling at me for things that I do that annoy her, despite her already knowing that I don't do those things with the intent of annoying anybody at all. For a senior in college, she is quite immature. IDK if this changes anything, but she has ADD. And kinda something going on with her English major and psychology minor. She even fails to understand the concept of humor, mostly because she has none at all and is often a killjoy whenever I make any type of joke she sees offensive in some way or another. For example, I was watching a video about social media posts that were written in "Engrish" (essential English so bad, it's obvious it's from somebody who is a non-native speaker).
Here is essentially how it went (S=Sister, if you can't figure that out):
Sister: Engrish is racist.
Me: How is Engrish racist?
S: Becuase it makes fun of Chinese people's accents.
Me: I don't see any Chinese people complaining. Stop being a killjoy and speaking for other people despite not having a clue what their opinions are (our entire family is white, BTW). Also, not my fault that you don't understand satire at all, despite being a senior in college with an English major.
S: No, me being an English major means that I do have a complete understanding of satire. Do you understand satire?
Me: Yes, yes I do. In fact, that is the style of comedy that I am into.
S: Is that so? Explain satire to me, then?
Me: I shouldn't have to explain satire to you, you're the English major. You should know how humor works.
SMH. My sister is so gosh-darn annoying sometimes. She thinks that she can tell me what kinds of jokes I can make. I am a 16 year-old-boy. I tell jokes that can sometimes be on the more offensive side. That's what teenagers do. She should learn to deal with it. The world isn't just gonna conform to her world view just because she wants it to.
Anyways, I am getting tired, and it is 9pm where I live right now. Sorry that this post was kinda all over the place. As I said, I am getting tired. I should probably get off the computer soon.
But when I'm doing something I really enjoy and find interesting, gee i can focus...
