ShellingFord
Well-Known Member
Hi, I've long suspected there was something not quite right with me, but it was not through my own observations. Quite the contrary, I always thought I was a very normal person, until my family started making remarks about how I'm "emotionally repressed" and I had no other choice but to believe them. However, I've always had doubts because I knew full well I was never denying my feelings to be felt, it's just when I did they weren't that important or I didn't know...or rather I still don't know how to communicate it. My family still insisted it though, because of my meltdowns and my solitary nature. My meltdowns are usually just crying fits brought on by frustration and if left alone they go away and I can carry on as if nothing happened. These would (and still do) greatly disturb my family and no matter how they try to help me when one occurs they always manage to make things worse.
It wasn't until a few months ago that I had actually bothered to research autism and asperger's syndrome and then everything just sort of clicked. I fit a lot of the symptoms and I've taken quite a few tests on the internet (Hardly definitive proof, I know, but it's the best I can do right now.) some of them very professional and serious, some of them very popculture and quiz-like. I do believe I have Asperger's, but until I can convince those around me it's unlikely that I'll be legitimately tested for it. Not that there are days where I'm unsure about my self-diagnoses and after a while people around me get tired of hearing about it, especially when they don't understand it. So that's why I'm here, to try and talk to people who may understand and maybe learn more about whether my self-diagnoses is accurate or not. (Sorry, this ended up being kinda long!)
It wasn't until a few months ago that I had actually bothered to research autism and asperger's syndrome and then everything just sort of clicked. I fit a lot of the symptoms and I've taken quite a few tests on the internet (Hardly definitive proof, I know, but it's the best I can do right now.) some of them very professional and serious, some of them very popculture and quiz-like. I do believe I have Asperger's, but until I can convince those around me it's unlikely that I'll be legitimately tested for it. Not that there are days where I'm unsure about my self-diagnoses and after a while people around me get tired of hearing about it, especially when they don't understand it. So that's why I'm here, to try and talk to people who may understand and maybe learn more about whether my self-diagnoses is accurate or not. (Sorry, this ended up being kinda long!)
