AliceHakurei
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I'm Alice, and I'm new to the forum. I think I have aspergers or at least some very similar traits. I have very bad social anxiety, anxiety problems in general, occasionally come off as self-centered without meaning to, among other things. I'm also emotionally immature. I'd say I'm around 14 emotionally but really 22. Another thing about me is that I'm also transgender (male to female), and that is another of my many identities.
I think the transgender part has a bit to do with my emotional immaturity, because I was never allowed to grow up as a girl, but I'm sure there's more to it than that. I know little about aspergers, but I think I have it to some degree.
I have a lot of trouble around large groups of people, especially parties, or family dinners. Anywhere where there is a lot of talking going on. I just get overwhelmed on a sensory level. It makes me want to scream, and if I do give myself some space, I'm labeled as antisocial. It's not that I don't like the people. They just don't understand how I work. I guess some people might say I'm self-centered, and that I'm in my own head a lot and don't think about other people. Others say I'm really generous and caring. I suppose it varies depending on the moment or the person. Another thing that I'm really aware of is a tendency to hold on to grudges. I'm trying to not let that affect me as much these days. It was pretty bad when I was younger to the point of wanting to hurt people.
A little bit about me. I'm currently studying English in college and perhaps a double major in Japanese as well. I love anime and manga, and video games, especially RPGs. I'm a huge fan of Touhou project if anyone knows what that is. I also love the Rocky Horror Picture Show and am part of a shadowcast. I am also an author and write mostly fantasy stories. I'd be open to sharing them with people as well.
I think the transgender part has a bit to do with my emotional immaturity, because I was never allowed to grow up as a girl, but I'm sure there's more to it than that. I know little about aspergers, but I think I have it to some degree.
I have a lot of trouble around large groups of people, especially parties, or family dinners. Anywhere where there is a lot of talking going on. I just get overwhelmed on a sensory level. It makes me want to scream, and if I do give myself some space, I'm labeled as antisocial. It's not that I don't like the people. They just don't understand how I work. I guess some people might say I'm self-centered, and that I'm in my own head a lot and don't think about other people. Others say I'm really generous and caring. I suppose it varies depending on the moment or the person. Another thing that I'm really aware of is a tendency to hold on to grudges. I'm trying to not let that affect me as much these days. It was pretty bad when I was younger to the point of wanting to hurt people.
A little bit about me. I'm currently studying English in college and perhaps a double major in Japanese as well. I love anime and manga, and video games, especially RPGs. I'm a huge fan of Touhou project if anyone knows what that is. I also love the Rocky Horror Picture Show and am part of a shadowcast. I am also an author and write mostly fantasy stories. I'd be open to sharing them with people as well.
