tryingtoregister
Well-Known Member
Hello All, my name is Chris. I was diagnosed with autism when I was 3 years old.. when I was young my psychiatrist thought I had a very severe case, my mother was told I only had maybe a 50/50 chance of learning to speak (I did, even if it took some years of speech therapy) and would almost assuredly never be able to hold a job or go to school. After about 6 months-year of going to therapy though (I'm 4 at this point) my therapist/mom realized that I already knew how to read and I guess that was the 'breakthrough' they had been looking for (I would say my symptoms mirror HFA now, though I haven't seen a therapist since elementary school).. I always kind of felt it easier to express myself writing then speaking. In another life I might have been someone totally else, I was put on a track to finish highschool by the time I was 14 but was pulled off because my social skills started lagging (as in when I skipped my first grade after 2 months in 1st, I didn't speak a word to anyone in the school for about 6 weeks until they sent me back to my original class). As time went on I learned more and more how to become sociable until now most people aren't aware I even have it at all.
I think I've just become more and more isolated though as time has gone by, I recently moved to a new city and I am having trouble meeting anyone new. I've also been so afraid to talk about my autism for fear of what people might think of me.. I feel like I worked so hard to fit in I don't want to have to be judged as an outsider. I recently told someone and I can't tell how they took it and it is causing me some anxiety, I am afraid she'll tell other people or will just not be able to look at me the same way.. I should say so few ppl in my life are fully aware of my condition even family members and friends don't know, I kind of just want an outlet to talk to other ppl who might understand me and maybe help me get through a little personal rough patch
I think I've just become more and more isolated though as time has gone by, I recently moved to a new city and I am having trouble meeting anyone new. I've also been so afraid to talk about my autism for fear of what people might think of me.. I feel like I worked so hard to fit in I don't want to have to be judged as an outsider. I recently told someone and I can't tell how they took it and it is causing me some anxiety, I am afraid she'll tell other people or will just not be able to look at me the same way.. I should say so few ppl in my life are fully aware of my condition even family members and friends don't know, I kind of just want an outlet to talk to other ppl who might understand me and maybe help me get through a little personal rough patch
