Lysander
Well-Known Member
Hey,
Must say I'm glad to be here - true Asperger's communities, consisting of those who are actually on the autistic spectrum, are absolutely brilliant, shining motes of humanity. NOT TO PAY MYSELF A COMPLEMENT OR ANYTHING (just kidding, we both know I did), but I look forward to meeting others who exist upon a similar plane of thought.
Here's some info about myself, for other's perusal:
Basic:
I am a 20-year-old college freshman living in Oregon, USA. I am not other than female.
Personal:
I think I've always had a hard time putting myself out there. I learn linguistically, showcase the highly viable skill of persuasion, and am even aware of the potential in that; even still, an unfamiliar smiling face and subsequential invitation are emotionally synonymous with the nightmare stuffs of eyes glinting in the dark above the flash of carnivorous teeth. . . it's something that I'm continuing to work on. I don't dislike people.
I love science, and in that, defend the truth, even against myself. Turns out, that's not always pro-social. . . love hurts, doesn't it?
History:
Although obviously present from birth, I did not grow up aware of Aspergers. My youth was fairly standard, and in retrospect, I cherish my differences.
As a young person with Asperger's, I have enjoyed qualities and abilities denied to most others. Who could have guessed that I would defeat the odds put forth by abusive and generally absent relatives - without intervention? I simply chose not to participate in illicit behavior. I knew, logically, that it was wrong. I knew, logically, that the retention of legal rights and complex problem-solving capacities was necessary in order to achieve effectual connection to reality - to the world, to infinity, or to god as some like to put it. The external, to the extent that I wanted it, remained available to me. I did not have an instinct to do what others did "just because" and I will forever rejoice in that asymmetry.
Regarding adulthood; I received the diagnosis of "Pervasive Developmental Disorder Not Otherwise Specified" at the age of 17, while undergoing residential mental health treatment. I entered following suicidal ideations, which I have never experienced since, nor shall have again. I am not depressed. At the age of 20, PDD-NOS was updated, and Asperger's took it's place.
Last Friday, I left treatment completely. Today, I live independently, happily absorbed in my interests, and anticipating a fine 20th year. Perfection is a nice sentiment, but even nicer is the apt phrase "nothing worth having was ever easy". An exaggeration, to be sure - but, upon comparing it to freedom, friendship, and peace - I confirm that the intended point is logical.
I am especially excited to hear from others who are on the autistic spectrum.
Must say I'm glad to be here - true Asperger's communities, consisting of those who are actually on the autistic spectrum, are absolutely brilliant, shining motes of humanity. NOT TO PAY MYSELF A COMPLEMENT OR ANYTHING (just kidding, we both know I did), but I look forward to meeting others who exist upon a similar plane of thought.
Here's some info about myself, for other's perusal:
Basic:
I am a 20-year-old college freshman living in Oregon, USA. I am not other than female.
Personal:
I think I've always had a hard time putting myself out there. I learn linguistically, showcase the highly viable skill of persuasion, and am even aware of the potential in that; even still, an unfamiliar smiling face and subsequential invitation are emotionally synonymous with the nightmare stuffs of eyes glinting in the dark above the flash of carnivorous teeth. . . it's something that I'm continuing to work on. I don't dislike people.
I love science, and in that, defend the truth, even against myself. Turns out, that's not always pro-social. . . love hurts, doesn't it?
History:
Although obviously present from birth, I did not grow up aware of Aspergers. My youth was fairly standard, and in retrospect, I cherish my differences.
As a young person with Asperger's, I have enjoyed qualities and abilities denied to most others. Who could have guessed that I would defeat the odds put forth by abusive and generally absent relatives - without intervention? I simply chose not to participate in illicit behavior. I knew, logically, that it was wrong. I knew, logically, that the retention of legal rights and complex problem-solving capacities was necessary in order to achieve effectual connection to reality - to the world, to infinity, or to god as some like to put it. The external, to the extent that I wanted it, remained available to me. I did not have an instinct to do what others did "just because" and I will forever rejoice in that asymmetry.
Regarding adulthood; I received the diagnosis of "Pervasive Developmental Disorder Not Otherwise Specified" at the age of 17, while undergoing residential mental health treatment. I entered following suicidal ideations, which I have never experienced since, nor shall have again. I am not depressed. At the age of 20, PDD-NOS was updated, and Asperger's took it's place.
Last Friday, I left treatment completely. Today, I live independently, happily absorbed in my interests, and anticipating a fine 20th year. Perfection is a nice sentiment, but even nicer is the apt phrase "nothing worth having was ever easy". An exaggeration, to be sure - but, upon comparing it to freedom, friendship, and peace - I confirm that the intended point is logical.
I am especially excited to hear from others who are on the autistic spectrum.
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