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Hello - New Member from Canada

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Thozuf

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Hello. Normally I like to skulk to get the feel of a place before I post an intro, but I am feeling all chuffed because of something I did very well yesterday so throwing caution to the wind.
I am old (57) and only diagnosed a few years ago, which makes me understand why I had so few friends over the years anyway.
The other issue was IED, tho - but getting medicated for that.
The few friends I had I pushed away because I deal with what they diagnosed so far as fibromyalgia, but i can not walk most days and take horrible medication that mess with my head and my stomach.

Anyhoo, a psychiatrist diagnosed me then went AWOL and I have no resources to figure out how to actually be true to myself instead of all these freakin masks I have been wearing (I believe I had burnout several years ago). I have no friends because pused them away, did not have many anyway because I am an immigrant, and deal with depression. I am married to a wonderful person who is patient but is getting to the end of their rope.
I tried a few other forums, might have already been booted from this one, because I do not understand humans and think I may not be autistic but just an embodiment of an alien consciousness that was stranded here on this backwater planet with a bunch of smarmy primates...oh, sorry. I guess that is why I have no friends? (*giggle*)

My hands do not work well and I am tired.
Did I give you reason to hate me? I hate me too.
Wheee!
 
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Oh, things I like that might help conversation that I can put in a bulleted list for ease of interactive formulae:
- Baking Bread from scratch (bread machine, then bake because my hands do not work to knead)
- Cooking from scratch, especially simple things
- MP Soap (because I am not smart enough for CP) and other bath/body products
- Star Trek AND Star Wars
- Disco
- MIDI bending
- Why these kids will not get off my lawn (did I mention old?)
 
LOL - my life model is "alien on earth" (TBRS1 = Terrain Biological Research Station - 1 would you like to apply for the position of Station 2? :) ).

The masks thing stinks so bad and is so hard, but they won't try to fit in with you, so you gotta figure out how to fit in with them. I also had a bad breakdown that I attribute largely to masking stress.

* making bread is fun and delightful! And super tasty!
*science fiction is the utter and total BOMB!
*when the neighbor kids come over to see what I'm up to, I smile, wave, then slink off into the woods. I'm old, too.
 
Hello @TBRS1 - very nice to meet you.
Perhaps we are of the same species, I have no way of knowing yet. I fell I was left here and forgotten. Can you msg home that I am ready to go back? LOL
Yeah, I had the breakdown. I do not know how to build myself back up yet. I am trying, but the flood of stuff to get to the core "me" is disturbing. Gah

Bread:
My hands do not work so I use a bread machine, but have been exploring other methods I could use that are more traditional. Anniversary present was a dutch oven and I also bought myself a banneton so this is teh first loaf of its kind

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SF: I was more into Star Trek, but enjoyed Star Wars. Ended up dating someone who could recite most of the lines from the Star Wars movies, so we get along okay. ;) I am more classic SF novels like Heinlein, Clarke, Bradbury, Wells, etc, but I can not really read very well anymore. (So I will miss major points here, gah)
I do not need as much reading comprehension here than churning through Wells!

Maybe I am about Niven/Pournelle comprehension then...? LOL (ducking)

Our neighbour kids are little turds.
Wish we had woods. LOL
I rarely leave the house.
"Bad things happen when you leave the house" - Ruben from Ruben and Ed
 
Hello and welcome. Glad you found us. Hope you find understanding, camaraderie, and support here. Let us know if you need any help settling in!
 
Bolletje said:
Ooh sourdough is on my long list of things to try too. Would you share your sourdough adventures?
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...can we do it together?
I have the dry starter that I have to start the water & flour thing. Get some and we can start together?

Stereo sourdough on opposite sides of the world! LOL
 
Rodafina said:
Hello and welcome. Glad you found us. Hope you find understanding, camaraderie, and support here. Let us know if you need any help settling in!
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Thank you. I have been 'myself' mostly so far and I do not feel...unwanted.
Give it time. Like most of us I think, I say the wrong thing at times, umm....usually. ;)
 
Hello! Very nice to meet you. That loaf of bread looks delicious! I also really like baking bread in cast iron, I think it's almost essential to good bread this point. :)
 
Athyrium said:
Hello! Very nice to meet you. That loaf of bread looks delicious! I also really like baking bread in cast iron, I think it's almost essential to good bread this point. :)
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That was like the first time for me and it was sooooo nerve wracking worrying if I wold get it right and that bread is sooooo goood.
Got any tips to getting a really crusty crust?
 
A lot of my friends who like to read have switched to audio books because of bad eyes. I'm heading that way, too.

I understand you can borrow them digitally from online libraries, somehow.
 
Thozuf said:
That was like the first time for me and it was sooooo nerve wracking worrying if I wold get it right and that bread is sooooo goood.
Got any tips to getting a really crusty crust?
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I am still experimenting myself, but running the oven about 5F higher seems to help a little.
 
hello. :) I'm 56 was diagnosed last year.

I do not know you, so I have no reason to hate you.

Have a great day. :)
 
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