Well Hello Everyone 
I aways get anxiouse when doing introductions but to hell with it.. here goes
My name is Alan and i am 28, and up until 6 months ago i really did have any idea that i have ASD. to clear things up quickly, i hdont yet have a full diagnosis but i am in the process after being urged to by my Partner, Staff @ NAS, a GP and a phycatrist, so as nearly all of these people are experianced and am pritty happy to say that i have ASD (aspies) but i still want it in writing, ( I cant stand not o be clear on things... Black and white is much better)
I am still not sure on how i should be dealing with all of this, as in away it still fairly new to me how ever my son has been officially diagnosed with aspies for several years, again up until recently i found it very hard to connect with him as we where so a like, both of us getting over involved in hobbies etc and chatting about them none stop but also annoyed at the othere as we both found it hard to get the other to listen to what we wanted to say... kinda funny really when you think about it... it drives my partner crazy some times.
my special gift seems to be the abillity to break objects down in my mind and see how its works and diagnose faults... comes in handy as an Data Center Engineer, but the ASD also seem to be a curse at times as i need to have task explained to me in every fine details or i will just get confused if i see somthing that i was not expecting to happen?
I do have my own world (Disconnects) but several... Video games is a major part of my life, i treat games as if they are the best selling novel and get extreamly involved in them. Also frustrates the hell out of me when people dont pay attention to the story line in games, and pass them off as medocer.
Music is another disconnect, it allows my mid to completely go blacnk and just listen to the music, even if there is lyrics i listen the the sounds and not the words. again i drive the better half mad when i can hearthings that are slightly out of tune and start raving about it... i can be worse than simon cowl when pop idle is on
I have 2 more so i will try not to go on too much... the next one is a bit freaky... Guns... absolutly fasinated with weapons and millitary i have several airsoft replicas that i can sit and mess with for hours as i love the sound of the metal hitting when cocking it... i told you strange.
The last is Cars, old new, muscle or tuned... i love the asthetics of them and the sounds that the engines make, nothing sounds better the a V8 supercharged :H
Now the bad things
I suffer really bad panic and anxiaty attacks, probably 4-7 of each every day. for loads of different reasons. I hate going out where there are lots of people. and even stranger is that i panic when some where does not feel safe???? i could be near a police station and still not feal safe. i wont even go to a pub as i am always on endge. Load sudden noise scare the hell out of me, bugs/ anything that flies that is not man made make me panic ( their movement is to frantic and un controlled). I can get over obsessed in my own world, i can seperate my self from everyone even my children and it does not effect me in anyway... in some case i prefere to be on my own, i feel like i can be my self.
I dont go to bed until the very early hours of the morning, somtimes im not even doing anything, just running conversation from earlier in the day through my mind and practicing conversations that havn't even happened yet... I have even been caught arguing with my self :lol:
another is that it always feels like i have 50 people in my mind all atlking at once and i cant focus on a single thought... this is even worse when i try and go to sleep.
lol... i have gone on for ages... sorry
I in no way feel like ASD is really a bad thing, its just me and in a way i am happy that i can finally put a lable to it as for years i thought i was just a geek going mad!
Although i have talked to my partner about this i havnt really mentioned it to any one else and i have managed to keep my behaivoer covered for years. but i feel much better acknolaging all of this now.
Anyway, nice to meet you all i can talk for england
I aways get anxiouse when doing introductions but to hell with it.. here goes
My name is Alan and i am 28, and up until 6 months ago i really did have any idea that i have ASD. to clear things up quickly, i hdont yet have a full diagnosis but i am in the process after being urged to by my Partner, Staff @ NAS, a GP and a phycatrist, so as nearly all of these people are experianced and am pritty happy to say that i have ASD (aspies) but i still want it in writing, ( I cant stand not o be clear on things... Black and white is much better)
I am still not sure on how i should be dealing with all of this, as in away it still fairly new to me how ever my son has been officially diagnosed with aspies for several years, again up until recently i found it very hard to connect with him as we where so a like, both of us getting over involved in hobbies etc and chatting about them none stop but also annoyed at the othere as we both found it hard to get the other to listen to what we wanted to say... kinda funny really when you think about it... it drives my partner crazy some times.
my special gift seems to be the abillity to break objects down in my mind and see how its works and diagnose faults... comes in handy as an Data Center Engineer, but the ASD also seem to be a curse at times as i need to have task explained to me in every fine details or i will just get confused if i see somthing that i was not expecting to happen?
I do have my own world (Disconnects) but several... Video games is a major part of my life, i treat games as if they are the best selling novel and get extreamly involved in them. Also frustrates the hell out of me when people dont pay attention to the story line in games, and pass them off as medocer.
Music is another disconnect, it allows my mid to completely go blacnk and just listen to the music, even if there is lyrics i listen the the sounds and not the words. again i drive the better half mad when i can hearthings that are slightly out of tune and start raving about it... i can be worse than simon cowl when pop idle is on
I have 2 more so i will try not to go on too much... the next one is a bit freaky... Guns... absolutly fasinated with weapons and millitary i have several airsoft replicas that i can sit and mess with for hours as i love the sound of the metal hitting when cocking it... i told you strange.
The last is Cars, old new, muscle or tuned... i love the asthetics of them and the sounds that the engines make, nothing sounds better the a V8 supercharged :H
Now the bad things
I suffer really bad panic and anxiaty attacks, probably 4-7 of each every day. for loads of different reasons. I hate going out where there are lots of people. and even stranger is that i panic when some where does not feel safe???? i could be near a police station and still not feal safe. i wont even go to a pub as i am always on endge. Load sudden noise scare the hell out of me, bugs/ anything that flies that is not man made make me panic ( their movement is to frantic and un controlled). I can get over obsessed in my own world, i can seperate my self from everyone even my children and it does not effect me in anyway... in some case i prefere to be on my own, i feel like i can be my self.
I dont go to bed until the very early hours of the morning, somtimes im not even doing anything, just running conversation from earlier in the day through my mind and practicing conversations that havn't even happened yet... I have even been caught arguing with my self :lol:
another is that it always feels like i have 50 people in my mind all atlking at once and i cant focus on a single thought... this is even worse when i try and go to sleep.
lol... i have gone on for ages... sorry
I in no way feel like ASD is really a bad thing, its just me and in a way i am happy that i can finally put a lable to it as for years i thought i was just a geek going mad!
Although i have talked to my partner about this i havnt really mentioned it to any one else and i have managed to keep my behaivoer covered for years. but i feel much better acknolaging all of this now.
Anyway, nice to meet you all i can talk for england
