kikacurls
New Member
Hi I’m new here. I am a 45 year old straight woman. I’m married and have four kids as well as an adopted daughter that is really my niece. I just got diagnosed with autism and ADHD Inattentive. Relationships are very difficult for me and have just gotten harder. I have always had this thing where I over talk and over share and feel super anxious when it’s quiet. In my twenties my husband told me I never let other people talk. So I started trying but I tend to interrupt people and go on tangents. I am at the point where I just don’t want to socialize anymore because it’s just so much work. I take things very literally and have a hard time letting go of things or deviating from what I think things are supposed to be. I’ve often been told I wasn’t smart or that I was weird. I have a hard time understanding people’s expressions and reactions. But I try to maintain a happy helpful personality. It’s hard for me to compromise or be able to understand things when people are trying to imply things or don’t say them directly. It’s just hard to have relationships with people when you don’t understand each other. I want to be able to have positive relationships with my husband and my children. My husband doesn’t really agree with my diagnosis. It’s been difficult all around and I don’t know how to feel. I want to feel relieved because now I understand that I’m just different and I think people being different is a good thing. I think if everyone was the same the world would be the most boring place in the world. Our differences are what make us unique and interesting. Also, understanding why I am the way I am should make me feel better. But thinking that no one will ever understand me or except me is kind of stopping all that. Can anyone else relate to this?
