It's not easy to try to introduce myself. I am very much having trouble trusting my expression because of not being very successful with the NT's in my life. I am older already, 48 years old, and having been trying and trying all my life, I think I got a sort of a burnout. I was good at reading the rules when I could limit my contact with a certain amount of people. Now it goes fine when I meet people the first or the second time, then it just goes downhill from there and then I obsess about what I have done wrong. Most of the time I don't even know it, and people do not like tell me either, so the obsessing goes on longer. I think I am about to learn how not to care anymore, at least I hope so. Considering also starting the diagnoses procedure, just not started it yet.
Luckily I have got a partner that is not so very normal either, and having him in my life, keeps my head above the water. I don't work anymore, I can't even think about having to perform anymore without getting into some serious sorrow zone. Last 6 years I've tried to be friends with 6 different women of different ages at different times and if it has not gone wrong because I have not been the way they consider a friend should be, then it has been about different values I have had or the different way I understand things. It's too much work for me, and I think I better stop trying all together, with NT's that is. I hope I can here try to practice "speaking" again, at least daring to say something at times.
I'm into Metaphysics, mostly out of the box type. Used to love science fiction, still do, but I don't care about the violence that is added to everything. So, I read a lot, there I can easily skip pages I don't like. IT is also an interest. That's it for now :nerd:
Luckily I have got a partner that is not so very normal either, and having him in my life, keeps my head above the water. I don't work anymore, I can't even think about having to perform anymore without getting into some serious sorrow zone. Last 6 years I've tried to be friends with 6 different women of different ages at different times and if it has not gone wrong because I have not been the way they consider a friend should be, then it has been about different values I have had or the different way I understand things. It's too much work for me, and I think I better stop trying all together, with NT's that is. I hope I can here try to practice "speaking" again, at least daring to say something at times.
I'm into Metaphysics, mostly out of the box type. Used to love science fiction, still do, but I don't care about the violence that is added to everything. So, I read a lot, there I can easily skip pages I don't like. IT is also an interest. That's it for now :nerd: