JDartistic
Well-Known Member
Some of you already know that I'm kind of freaking out over my neighbors. I realize that much of my struggle is in my own inability to socially interact AND I have that "black and white" thinking that is really making it harder for me to cope.
Briefly, I am surrounded my neighbors who, when they threatened to harm the deer that go on my property, I responded by trying to talk to them, but only got screamed at instead, and I made the mistake of telling the guy that he was frightening me (which he was).
Now, he's telling everyone that he almost got killed b/c a deer from my yard jumped out in front of him while he was in his golf cart. What's important to NOTE about that is that I've watched this man go out in his golf cart and chase down the deer. He's also always quite drunk. Still, he is blaming me for "feeding the deer" and that I'm solely responsible for the entire deer population in this wildlife conservation area.
I live in a Redneck area, but I read in another post that some are offended by my generalizing that term, so I will describe my neighbors as often drunk and simply taking pleasure in being loud and obnoxious. They also drive around in their trucks with the American flag blazing out the back - and I mean flags that are as big as their trucks, and they just drive around and beep their horns. They do similar displays with their RVs and they like to rev their engines.
It's important to NOTE here that I am gay, and I think a lot of this hostility toward me is actually when I was stupid enough to raise a rainbow flag. I also said something on the FB page about the fireworks they set off to "scare" the deer away. It upset me b/c when the doe is in my yard, she's just eating bird seed. But when they set off the firecrackers, she "spooks" and then runs away in a panic - which is 10x more dangerous in getting hit by a car than her just eating bird seed in my yard, but for some reason they find the latter to be wrong, but fire crackers to be the solution (I don't get it)!
I've had several meltdowns, which unfortunately some of you have read on this site, and since then, I've just been hiding in my house. I even called in sick yesterday b/c I cried all day, b/c I am feeling depressed and terribly overwhelmed.
My "black and white" thinking wants me to MOVE Immediately, but then I look at my bank account and see that I can't, which in turn becomes more depression and "mutism" which is what is happening to me now when I am in the neighborhood walking my dog. I'm also excessively daydreaming cuz that's my "stim," but I am doing it now for over 8 hours a day.
How do I resolve this situation? They think it's my fault that the deer are in the hood. They think I "instigated it" by feeding the deer. But it's important to NOTE that when I moved in a year ago, I simply set up bird feeders & put out squirrel food - it's not my fault the deer also come! Worse, I don't want to stop feeding the birds and rabbits and squirrels! I want to set up a wildlife sanctuary in my yard, but I feel like they are going to hurt the doe and that it's all my fault, even though it was never my intention, but that they think I am doing this personally to them - which I am not.
What should I do? I've tried talking to them, but that's when the guy SCREAMED IN MY FACE, so that doesn't work. This guy is also really popular, whereas I'm the pharaoh in the hood.
Now, I will add that there are few neighbors who are really nice. The problem is that I don't see them that often, b/c I am surrounded (both next and across the street from me) by the "rednecks" (sorry!), so I can't ever get away from them b/c they are always right there.
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...so sad I am....
Briefly, I am surrounded my neighbors who, when they threatened to harm the deer that go on my property, I responded by trying to talk to them, but only got screamed at instead, and I made the mistake of telling the guy that he was frightening me (which he was).
Now, he's telling everyone that he almost got killed b/c a deer from my yard jumped out in front of him while he was in his golf cart. What's important to NOTE about that is that I've watched this man go out in his golf cart and chase down the deer. He's also always quite drunk. Still, he is blaming me for "feeding the deer" and that I'm solely responsible for the entire deer population in this wildlife conservation area.
I live in a Redneck area, but I read in another post that some are offended by my generalizing that term, so I will describe my neighbors as often drunk and simply taking pleasure in being loud and obnoxious. They also drive around in their trucks with the American flag blazing out the back - and I mean flags that are as big as their trucks, and they just drive around and beep their horns. They do similar displays with their RVs and they like to rev their engines.
It's important to NOTE here that I am gay, and I think a lot of this hostility toward me is actually when I was stupid enough to raise a rainbow flag. I also said something on the FB page about the fireworks they set off to "scare" the deer away. It upset me b/c when the doe is in my yard, she's just eating bird seed. But when they set off the firecrackers, she "spooks" and then runs away in a panic - which is 10x more dangerous in getting hit by a car than her just eating bird seed in my yard, but for some reason they find the latter to be wrong, but fire crackers to be the solution (I don't get it)!
I've had several meltdowns, which unfortunately some of you have read on this site, and since then, I've just been hiding in my house. I even called in sick yesterday b/c I cried all day, b/c I am feeling depressed and terribly overwhelmed.
My "black and white" thinking wants me to MOVE Immediately, but then I look at my bank account and see that I can't, which in turn becomes more depression and "mutism" which is what is happening to me now when I am in the neighborhood walking my dog. I'm also excessively daydreaming cuz that's my "stim," but I am doing it now for over 8 hours a day.
How do I resolve this situation? They think it's my fault that the deer are in the hood. They think I "instigated it" by feeding the deer. But it's important to NOTE that when I moved in a year ago, I simply set up bird feeders & put out squirrel food - it's not my fault the deer also come! Worse, I don't want to stop feeding the birds and rabbits and squirrels! I want to set up a wildlife sanctuary in my yard, but I feel like they are going to hurt the doe and that it's all my fault, even though it was never my intention, but that they think I am doing this personally to them - which I am not.
What should I do? I've tried talking to them, but that's when the guy SCREAMED IN MY FACE, so that doesn't work. This guy is also really popular, whereas I'm the pharaoh in the hood.
Now, I will add that there are few neighbors who are really nice. The problem is that I don't see them that often, b/c I am surrounded (both next and across the street from me) by the "rednecks" (sorry!), so I can't ever get away from them b/c they are always right there.
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...so sad I am....
