2wheels4ever
Well-Known Member
So I've recently turned a pretty significant age, and doing a bit of 'relationship forensics', seeing how my particular brain circuitry has knocked me in the dirt over time. Anyway it was suggested I seek out people 'more like me'
From my earliest memories I can recall getting out of a secured house by any means possible and the occasional 'it might be stupid but let's try it anyway' - like riding a tricycle into a swimming pool without knowing how to swim, or stepping on a tines-up garden rake barefoot- or hot coals from a campfire. Riding a bicycle down a hill into an intersection without using brakes. A Dr. once told me ADDs lose things and get into accidents, are they really accidents if you're somehow expecting a different outcome? Speaking of diagnoses; retardation, autism, hearing aphasia, hyperkinesis- these were all before I was even 5 years old. In adulthood I battle with a lot of depression; which is mainly triggered by my people skills. I checked 'Not sure' bc I read one take on AS that said it's impossible to lie. While I probably could lie convincingly with a lot of practice, I don't know if that singular trait rules me out or not. I'm currently taking an ADD med that seems to not work as well as it did. Which is still loads better than the laundry list of stuff they've pushed me since they pulled Cylert off the map. That one was the only med where I seemed to be in the zone- no detentions, no getting sent home early, no fights at school, no fights at home, friends and a sense that life was OK
Anyway after I graduated HS I basically locked myself in a room with a guitar for 10 years- emerged from the cocoon, discovered the opposite gender and a wide variety of things to self-medicate with. which I did for a few years before coming to, and coming to believe. Along with music it was BMX bikes for a while, then working on VWs, which led to mopeds. Anywy that's a little bit of who and where I am, thanks for reading
From my earliest memories I can recall getting out of a secured house by any means possible and the occasional 'it might be stupid but let's try it anyway' - like riding a tricycle into a swimming pool without knowing how to swim, or stepping on a tines-up garden rake barefoot- or hot coals from a campfire. Riding a bicycle down a hill into an intersection without using brakes. A Dr. once told me ADDs lose things and get into accidents, are they really accidents if you're somehow expecting a different outcome? Speaking of diagnoses; retardation, autism, hearing aphasia, hyperkinesis- these were all before I was even 5 years old. In adulthood I battle with a lot of depression; which is mainly triggered by my people skills. I checked 'Not sure' bc I read one take on AS that said it's impossible to lie. While I probably could lie convincingly with a lot of practice, I don't know if that singular trait rules me out or not. I'm currently taking an ADD med that seems to not work as well as it did. Which is still loads better than the laundry list of stuff they've pushed me since they pulled Cylert off the map. That one was the only med where I seemed to be in the zone- no detentions, no getting sent home early, no fights at school, no fights at home, friends and a sense that life was OK
Anyway after I graduated HS I basically locked myself in a room with a guitar for 10 years- emerged from the cocoon, discovered the opposite gender and a wide variety of things to self-medicate with. which I did for a few years before coming to, and coming to believe. Along with music it was BMX bikes for a while, then working on VWs, which led to mopeds. Anywy that's a little bit of who and where I am, thanks for reading
