Nason
May the forest be with you.
Hello hello everyone my name is Nason,
I am not sure how to begin, so here are some of a) my interests/strengths and then an explaination for b) why I'm here.
a) I work in education and technology. However, I am making a huge shift and will be going back to graduate school for mechanical engineering. Soon after I will enter the field of robotics. So, what I'm saying is that I love science! When I was in elementary and middle school I wanted to be a doctor of ornithology. Flight facinates me. I love planes, space craft, balloons, and the mechnics of flight. When I was little I loved to memorize the various types of commercial aircraft. So, briefly I like:
1) science
2) art
3) nature/environmentalism
b) I am here for several reasons: I feel like I don't understand people (their motives, intentions, feelings, etc), I feel alienated from society (this is a neutral feeling), and I feel that I relate best to animals. When I was young my mother said that I spoke like a little professor (and that people were intreaged by my specific depth of knowledge). Other times I was silent. My mom would then say, "He's a man of many words." Which was kinda weird and awkward for me when I was little. Yet here I was standing there with people either silent or on a tangent about birds, bugs, reptiles, and sharks. So yeah, small talk is strange, unnatural, and brings me anxiety. I was a late talker (5yrs.) and needed speech therapy once I was talking. I used to stim vocally (I loved to run and jump/skip simultainiously). My mom didn't like that (the vocals. I'm not sure why. I assume because it was "non-sense" or not "normal"). So as I grew older, and as middle school approached I found other ways to stimm; using my hands/fingers. I wanted to be part of the "group", but it didn't feel right. I usually only had a couple of good friends ( eccentric friends). I would sit by myself at lunch, because the social expectations were too much for me (I hate small talk, and I found what kids had to say boring. I didn't understand a lot of their interest, or jokes. It took a lot of energy on a daily basis. I was exhausted by the time I was home from school. All I wanted to do at home was go outside into the woods, explore, examine nature, build forts/structures, and meander. I loved talking to the birds (specifically crows and Chickadees). I want to avoid talking too much here so...
With this said, I have been diagnosed with ADHD, anxiety, and dyslexia. I am aware that ASD and ADHD are commonly cooccuring and, thus, I have done a lot of research. One of my best friends has been diagnosed as high functioning autistic, and she suggests that I seek a reevaluation.
I have only talked to my friend and my fiancee. I am afraid to talk to my parents for more information because I'm not sure how to ask. I'm embarrassed to think that I might have missed something so defining in my life. Although at the same time this may explain why I find it impossible to express my emotions, why I experience sensory overload from sound, light, and motion (smell & texture more so when I was younger), why I lack tact, don't really understand idioms (I understand them when they are explained... still weird though), sarcasm, blah blah blah beep boop
I am not sure how to begin, so here are some of a) my interests/strengths and then an explaination for b) why I'm here.
a) I work in education and technology. However, I am making a huge shift and will be going back to graduate school for mechanical engineering. Soon after I will enter the field of robotics. So, what I'm saying is that I love science! When I was in elementary and middle school I wanted to be a doctor of ornithology. Flight facinates me. I love planes, space craft, balloons, and the mechnics of flight. When I was little I loved to memorize the various types of commercial aircraft. So, briefly I like:
1) science
2) art
3) nature/environmentalism
b) I am here for several reasons: I feel like I don't understand people (their motives, intentions, feelings, etc), I feel alienated from society (this is a neutral feeling), and I feel that I relate best to animals. When I was young my mother said that I spoke like a little professor (and that people were intreaged by my specific depth of knowledge). Other times I was silent. My mom would then say, "He's a man of many words." Which was kinda weird and awkward for me when I was little. Yet here I was standing there with people either silent or on a tangent about birds, bugs, reptiles, and sharks. So yeah, small talk is strange, unnatural, and brings me anxiety. I was a late talker (5yrs.) and needed speech therapy once I was talking. I used to stim vocally (I loved to run and jump/skip simultainiously). My mom didn't like that (the vocals. I'm not sure why. I assume because it was "non-sense" or not "normal"). So as I grew older, and as middle school approached I found other ways to stimm; using my hands/fingers. I wanted to be part of the "group", but it didn't feel right. I usually only had a couple of good friends ( eccentric friends). I would sit by myself at lunch, because the social expectations were too much for me (I hate small talk, and I found what kids had to say boring. I didn't understand a lot of their interest, or jokes. It took a lot of energy on a daily basis. I was exhausted by the time I was home from school. All I wanted to do at home was go outside into the woods, explore, examine nature, build forts/structures, and meander. I loved talking to the birds (specifically crows and Chickadees). I want to avoid talking too much here so...
With this said, I have been diagnosed with ADHD, anxiety, and dyslexia. I am aware that ASD and ADHD are commonly cooccuring and, thus, I have done a lot of research. One of my best friends has been diagnosed as high functioning autistic, and she suggests that I seek a reevaluation.
I have only talked to my friend and my fiancee. I am afraid to talk to my parents for more information because I'm not sure how to ask. I'm embarrassed to think that I might have missed something so defining in my life. Although at the same time this may explain why I find it impossible to express my emotions, why I experience sensory overload from sound, light, and motion (smell & texture more so when I was younger), why I lack tact, don't really understand idioms (I understand them when they are explained... still weird though), sarcasm, blah blah blah beep boop
