manca
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I'm Manca, from Slovenia. I'm 20years old. I suspect I may have asperger's syndrome. All the quizzes I've taken by now say I have it :rolleyes2:
I basically came here for help and support. And please correct mistakes I make, English is not my mother tounge.
I don't get along with most people (I had 4 friends in last 5 years, couldn't keep any for more than few months), and relatives seem to get annoyed with me quickly. I feel quite lonely sometimes, but then again, if people are around me for too long I don't feel very well either.
University is a horror story, I had to live in another town (managed to do it for 3 months, I was too anxious and unhappy and now I'm driving every day, 3 hours a day). My parents and other relatives think it's because I miss my horses and can't go without seeing them for 4 days (I was at home for the weekends). I honestly don't know how big part my horses have in me not wanting to leave, I just get very anxious to go away, don't know why.
I have average results at uni, just because I get anxious and feel sick every time I think about going there again, so I try to postpone everything, even thinking about my responsibilities, studying etc. That's not fine, because I have to get great grades to keep my scholarship so I'm able to pay for my horses.
I'm studying to become engineer of radiology which seemed to be a bad choice (I thought it would include more physics and not so much work with people...), but after my first 2 months of working in hospital I do quite well. It's the same thing with every patient and I enjoy doing it (only the first 2 weeks were an issue). And the hospital is in my hometown so that's great too.
When I'm in new situations I tend to hide (I was going in the basement when we had a break in new school). I hate changes (bringing a new broom into stable ruins my day) and I cried every night for a week when I got my first horse. Not because I was happy, but because everything was about to change. I haven't told that to anyone, I thought they would interpret that I don't want a horse, and that wasn't true. Horses are my life.
I hate traveling and dancing (it's very hard for me to repeat moves after someone else), I don't like being in a crowd, at parties, etc.
I can hardly participate in conversation when there are more people. I always wait for my turn to speak, but they are changing subjects too fast. I can speak with one person fine, but I often find myself with nothing to talk about with them, especially if I don't know them. If they can speak horses we're fine
If it's a group of horsey people, I again can't get my turn. I'm not slow with talking or thinking. I just keep waiting for my turn.
I don't like talking on phone, even answering makes me anxious and I tend not to answer and I text back later. It's mostly that I don't know about what they will want to talk.
And the list goes on...
I just wanted to share my problems, see if maybe someone else is going through the same thing.
I wasn't diagnosed officially and I don't know if it's worth to go through the process. I've never seen a psychologist and I don't know if I need or want to. Not sure how much things would change for me.
So, that was a long hi
Nice to meet you!
I basically came here for help and support. And please correct mistakes I make, English is not my mother tounge.
I don't get along with most people (I had 4 friends in last 5 years, couldn't keep any for more than few months), and relatives seem to get annoyed with me quickly. I feel quite lonely sometimes, but then again, if people are around me for too long I don't feel very well either.
University is a horror story, I had to live in another town (managed to do it for 3 months, I was too anxious and unhappy and now I'm driving every day, 3 hours a day). My parents and other relatives think it's because I miss my horses and can't go without seeing them for 4 days (I was at home for the weekends). I honestly don't know how big part my horses have in me not wanting to leave, I just get very anxious to go away, don't know why.
I have average results at uni, just because I get anxious and feel sick every time I think about going there again, so I try to postpone everything, even thinking about my responsibilities, studying etc. That's not fine, because I have to get great grades to keep my scholarship so I'm able to pay for my horses.
I'm studying to become engineer of radiology which seemed to be a bad choice (I thought it would include more physics and not so much work with people...), but after my first 2 months of working in hospital I do quite well. It's the same thing with every patient and I enjoy doing it (only the first 2 weeks were an issue). And the hospital is in my hometown so that's great too.
When I'm in new situations I tend to hide (I was going in the basement when we had a break in new school). I hate changes (bringing a new broom into stable ruins my day) and I cried every night for a week when I got my first horse. Not because I was happy, but because everything was about to change. I haven't told that to anyone, I thought they would interpret that I don't want a horse, and that wasn't true. Horses are my life.
I hate traveling and dancing (it's very hard for me to repeat moves after someone else), I don't like being in a crowd, at parties, etc.
I can hardly participate in conversation when there are more people. I always wait for my turn to speak, but they are changing subjects too fast. I can speak with one person fine, but I often find myself with nothing to talk about with them, especially if I don't know them. If they can speak horses we're fine
If it's a group of horsey people, I again can't get my turn. I'm not slow with talking or thinking. I just keep waiting for my turn.I don't like talking on phone, even answering makes me anxious and I tend not to answer and I text back later. It's mostly that I don't know about what they will want to talk.
And the list goes on...
I just wanted to share my problems, see if maybe someone else is going through the same thing.
I wasn't diagnosed officially and I don't know if it's worth to go through the process. I've never seen a psychologist and I don't know if I need or want to. Not sure how much things would change for me.
So, that was a long hi
Nice to meet you!
