Spud58
Member
My name is Andy, I am a 34 year old disabled Marine Corps veteran, and just recently found out about Aspergers when my 10 year old daughter was diagnosed and sent to a treatment center very recently. After researching a bit, I realized that I could possibly be an Aspie myself, looking back at my life and social awkwardness, anxiety in groups of more than 3-4 even if it was friends or family, very few friends, not knowing how to talk to people, or keep a conversation going, inability to hold a job or relationship for more than a few months to a year, the list goes on and on. I took some tests online, scored 35-36 I don't remember, had my roommate take one, she scored a 9. My roommate is also my ex girlfriend, one of my longer relationships (3 years on and off) and she also says it explains a lot about me.
It has been a very rough past couple weeks finding out all this, it is a relief to know (possibly) why my life has been this way, but I am fighting depression with it too. I get the feeling of being different, not accepted, and a lot of paranoia about how I am now too. I guess I need to learn more and stop trying to blame myself for what I can't help. Very hard to do with how I have raised myself to respond to social situations.
I have hopes that I can get a real diagnosis through the VA but I am not holding my breath for that one. I read it's a long hard process to have done,but I want to start down that road if I can ASAP.
Enough rambling from me heh, I will be around the forums I hope, see you there!
Semper Fi
Andy
It has been a very rough past couple weeks finding out all this, it is a relief to know (possibly) why my life has been this way, but I am fighting depression with it too. I get the feeling of being different, not accepted, and a lot of paranoia about how I am now too. I guess I need to learn more and stop trying to blame myself for what I can't help. Very hard to do with how I have raised myself to respond to social situations.
I have hopes that I can get a real diagnosis through the VA but I am not holding my breath for that one. I read it's a long hard process to have done,but I want to start down that road if I can ASAP.
Enough rambling from me heh, I will be around the forums I hope, see you there!
Semper Fi
Andy