Hi everyone, I'm new to this site and starting my journey.
Since I was young, I always felt different. I didn't understand my parents well, and later, when I started school, I experienced a lot of miscommunication with teachers and other kids.
I always loved to mess and soil my pants, and at night, my diaper. I was a bedwetter until my mid-teens, and during the day, I frequently had accidents (both #1 and #2), sometimes bigger, sometimes smaller. When I went through periods with more accidents, my mother would put me back in diapers for a while, either as punishment or for protection. I loved being diapered and cared for.
Even now, as an adult, I occasionally have small accidents during the day, though not at night.
When I grew up, I discovered the ABDL community online, and I strongly relate to it.
Almost two years ago, I started therapy. I realized that the ABDL tendencies, along with other behaviors, were a way for me to seek security. So, we've begun working on that. I'm filled with trauma from so many years of feeling different and misunderstood. While we're working through it, I've slowly started to lose interest in some of those behaviors, including ABDL. However, as my therapist guides me, I still wear a diaper almost every night, and in the morning, I still mess and wet it. But I can definitely feel that I don't need it or crave it as much as I used to, and the AB part is almost gone, hopefully forever.
A few months ago, my therapist sent me to a psychiatrist, who suggested I might have level one ASD. I was shocked and also kind of excited to finally understand what might be going on. I started researching ASD and took some tests, all of which indicated that I do have it.
Learning about ASD has opened up a whole new world for me. I love that I can finally begin to understand myself.
On the other hand, I'm struggling with many things, some of which have improved over the years, but I still struggle considerably.
My sexual life is one of these. I'm married to my beloved wife, who has some other mental health challenges, and we have lovely children, but sex is a hassle.
So, I'm wondering what kind of topics are appropriate to discuss on this site. I have a lot more to share about all of this and other things. Feel free to ask me anything. I'll try my best to reply to everyone when I have time, probably within a couple of days.
I love you all
Since I was young, I always felt different. I didn't understand my parents well, and later, when I started school, I experienced a lot of miscommunication with teachers and other kids.
I always loved to mess and soil my pants, and at night, my diaper. I was a bedwetter until my mid-teens, and during the day, I frequently had accidents (both #1 and #2), sometimes bigger, sometimes smaller. When I went through periods with more accidents, my mother would put me back in diapers for a while, either as punishment or for protection. I loved being diapered and cared for.
Even now, as an adult, I occasionally have small accidents during the day, though not at night.
When I grew up, I discovered the ABDL community online, and I strongly relate to it.
Almost two years ago, I started therapy. I realized that the ABDL tendencies, along with other behaviors, were a way for me to seek security. So, we've begun working on that. I'm filled with trauma from so many years of feeling different and misunderstood. While we're working through it, I've slowly started to lose interest in some of those behaviors, including ABDL. However, as my therapist guides me, I still wear a diaper almost every night, and in the morning, I still mess and wet it. But I can definitely feel that I don't need it or crave it as much as I used to, and the AB part is almost gone, hopefully forever.
A few months ago, my therapist sent me to a psychiatrist, who suggested I might have level one ASD. I was shocked and also kind of excited to finally understand what might be going on. I started researching ASD and took some tests, all of which indicated that I do have it.
Learning about ASD has opened up a whole new world for me. I love that I can finally begin to understand myself.
On the other hand, I'm struggling with many things, some of which have improved over the years, but I still struggle considerably.
My sexual life is one of these. I'm married to my beloved wife, who has some other mental health challenges, and we have lovely children, but sex is a hassle.
So, I'm wondering what kind of topics are appropriate to discuss on this site. I have a lot more to share about all of this and other things. Feel free to ask me anything. I'll try my best to reply to everyone when I have time, probably within a couple of days.
I love you all
