Time to do this properly:
Hello everyone.
My name is Tom.
I decided to get diagnosed last year, but I've known I'm an aspie sinse I was 15 (I'm 27 now). Before that (15 years of age) everyone, myself included thought I was a little retarded.
(Thank you Mr. appointed school psychologist!)
IQ tests blew that out of the water but it did not change how people viewed me or treated me, I was still the same quiet teen with strange behaviour.
It all made me very interested in how people think, so ever sinse then I've been learning all I can about psychologie and neurology.
The more I learn though, the more I feel seperated from society and people in general.
The differences between myself and neurotypical people became blatantly obvious, every bit of knowledge felt like a slap in the face.
Trying to function in society taught me some skills, I may be one of the worlds greatest actors.
I know whats expected of me and I've learnt how to act appropriately.
The last 9 years I worked nights in a bakery as a pastrycheff.
There were atleast 10 co workers around at any given time, lots of machinery and terrible bright yellow lighting.
I could manage to work and act as was expected of me, but at the end of the day (night) I was usually drained.
My sensory problems arn't extreme as far as I can tell, but enough to cause epilepsie to act up.
3 Weeks ago I had a grand mal at work. I quit right after, it didn't take my colleagues long to brand me professor "stuipje" which means "little siezure".
If I could focus on 1-2 things at a time everything was fine, but when the massive dishwasher started making noise and puffing steam I regularly phased out in to deja vu land for a few seconds.
I've accepted most of the things that most people do, and that I have to make an effort to fit in.
Morally and ethically is a different story all together though.
I keep bumping in to lies and deciet, circular thinking etc... Those things make me deeply sad.
Allong with brainscience I'm also heavily invested in to physics and biology.
It all allows me to connect the dots and put things in perspective.