Hi new member

[strugglewithin]

I have been reading the threads and finally decided to write. I have known for 15 years about my condition. I never let it hold me back. I just take my alone time until I get my head straight and feel better. I am married and my wife knows but doesn't understand it.

 

[Tom]

Hi & Welcome,
Hope you can feel understood here and maybe get some ideas that will help in your relationship.

 

[The Phantom]

Hi and welcome to the forum

 

[Rocco]

Welcome aboard

 

[Progster]

Hi, and welcome

 

[strugglewithin]

Thank you everyone.

 

[smileeachday]

welcome

 

[StephF]

Hi there

 

[metalminx24]

Hey, is your name down to the way u feel or the metallica song?[emoji450]

 

[ancusmitis]

Hello there. Nice to meet you

 

[strugglewithin]

Metallica song, seen them live 4 times, and it's how nobody can see my struggles because I look normal. I also have speech issues on my spectrum.

 

[metalminx24]

I saw them live too, 20 years ago tho! It's nice to have you join us

 

[Epicurean Pariah]

strugglewithin, I am curious. Do you feel that you are better able to communicate with writing than with speaking.
Since I joined AC a couple of months ago, and started writing several posts, I discovered that I could slow down the words enough to control the cascade of thinking. Now I can say my mental acuity, clarity of speech, name recognition has improved and other than being my dogs personal human, nothing has taught me patience and humor better than raving on this forum.
I hope you continue to add your voice here. Post often.

 

[strugglewithin]

Yes I write better than I speak. I did take speech classes until 5th grade. Spoke my own language until I was in 3rd grade. Aspergers was not a thing in the early 70's. So I was diagnosed as a having trouble because I was born 9 weeks early. For me I talk normal for the most part but I have to practice what I say before I say it. If I am really tired I have a accent that people think I am Scottish, I'm from iowa live in texas. At restaurants I will order the same thing so I don't have to try to order anything new. I don't talk much on phones so when I go back and see my family they have a hard time understanding me.
Now writing comes much easier. The ideas do get mixed up but I can go back and rewrite till it makes sense. So far only 3x on this. In college I can keep up with the kids and my papers are usually better.
I do wish my brain to mouth connection was better. I am used to people asking me what am I talking about and please repeat.
I also like reading about other people's struggles because they sound like mine. I felt sometimes I would never fit in any where. It was one thing knowing I have a condition but I feel better about my struggles knowing others go through it also. I am not the strange guy in the corner not talking.
Jason

 

[Epicurean Pariah]

Yes I write better than I speak. I did take speech classes until 5th grade. Spoke my own language until I was in 3rd grade. Aspergers was not a thing in the early 70's. So I was diagnosed as a having trouble because I was born 9 weeks early. For me I talk normal for the most part but I have to practice what I say before I say it. If I am really tired I have a accent that people think I am Scottish, I'm from iowa live in texas. At restaurants I will order the same thing so I don't have to try to order anything new. I don't talk much on phones so when I go back and see my family they have a hard time understanding me.
Now writing comes much easier. The ideas do get mixed up but I can go back and rewrite till it makes sense. So far only 3x on this. In college I can keep up with the kids and my papers are usually better.
I do wish my brain to mouth connection was better. I am used to people asking me what am I talking about and please repeat.
I also like reading about other people's struggles because they sou nd like mine. I felt sometimes I would never fit in any where. It was one thing knowing I have a condition but I feel better about my struggles knowing others go through it also. I am not the strange guy in the corner not talking.
Jason

strugglewithin , I am 67, first time I heard the word Aspergers from a nurse relative of the wife a few years back. I never pursued the issue.
At 67 I was in a tomb and safe, protected. About 2-3 months ago I saw a show on TV about general AS. My wife could not understand the communication of the Aspers, I understood them to the point that it was easy to understand. I could read between the lines, and she could not.
Anyway I took most of the online tests and was almost off the charts, there was something else, another issue, I think it is a matter of trust, about who I touch and who touches me, not an aversion but more like exclusivity. Almost off the chart.
Never the less my point in this ramble is you don't have to rewrite, we don't grade. You are welcome to share your foibles, believe me I have a few of my own. As a matter if fact I collect vices. Being forthright and brutal in sharing my perspectives or POV honestly are two of my favorites.

 

[strugglewithin]

Here is one of mine. Kind of a high number usually score 10-12

 

[Epicurean Pariah]

strugglewithin, I guess, I really don't know what any of it means, really. No kidding. Really.
I never thought it important. The only thing I remember, and keep in mind I am a doddering and frail old man, a score of 44 when 33 was the minimum for NT/ HFA, Asper, but I'm not sure, meaningless.
The very next thing, immediately, in that moment searched probable or professed Aspers. I noted maybe 20. Then, immediately, I searched possible Aspers in history.
Let me tell you, my friend, almost every human being throughout human history that I admired was on those few sites.
The up shot is, within an hour, I was a changed human being. I crawled out of the box and I am so PROUD to be an Asper and I felt so good about who I was, that I sought out a group of folks with the bandwidth, wavelength and frequency that I could communicate with.
Voilà, I communicate with you, any where in the world, immediately. The fracking power to change, to grow strong, simply amazed me. Like an epiphany. I am a true believer in us, and there some others here I assume might agree.
I am Diogenes, AC is my lantern, and certainty is my flame.
Not a bad place for a dithering senior citizen.