Hi everyone, a rather lost onlything here.
Not really sure what to write. That I am an aspie? That I think that I am an aspie? Aspie girl, aspie guy? Honestly, I'm tired of defending myself every time I tell someone what I really feel. It's like a neverending kaleidoscope of emotions and reactions I just can't understand and with unlogical lapses in judgments adding salt to the wounds. I would ask for a translator and a Guide to a Human Being but I'm afraid that would seem rather weird to all the people out there in the big bad world. Again.
When you're trying to be yourself, it's bad because you're never like others. A different, weird creature - a scary creature with no emotions. A robot, encyclopedia and a freak. But when you're trying to fit in, it's even worse because of the feeling of being just a mask, a pretender playing its part on a scene. Then, when you tell others that you think you can trust...
But you're completely normal!
Mental illnesses can be overcome!
So, you don't have emotions at all..?
Oh, really? No comment. I do.
In the race where the great award is being seen as normal, I put on so many masks that I lost sight of what is really me. In the end, I thought that maybe I could find it in a place for, seemingly, likeminded people. All the question of who I am, what I like, what I want, what is me, what people want, what people intend with me - these can be answered.
Can they really?
Congrats if you came to the end of this post. It's appreciated.
Cheers,
onlything
Not really sure what to write. That I am an aspie? That I think that I am an aspie? Aspie girl, aspie guy? Honestly, I'm tired of defending myself every time I tell someone what I really feel. It's like a neverending kaleidoscope of emotions and reactions I just can't understand and with unlogical lapses in judgments adding salt to the wounds. I would ask for a translator and a Guide to a Human Being but I'm afraid that would seem rather weird to all the people out there in the big bad world. Again.
When you're trying to be yourself, it's bad because you're never like others. A different, weird creature - a scary creature with no emotions. A robot, encyclopedia and a freak. But when you're trying to fit in, it's even worse because of the feeling of being just a mask, a pretender playing its part on a scene. Then, when you tell others that you think you can trust...
But you're completely normal!
Mental illnesses can be overcome!
So, you don't have emotions at all..?
Oh, really? No comment. I do.
In the race where the great award is being seen as normal, I put on so many masks that I lost sight of what is really me. In the end, I thought that maybe I could find it in a place for, seemingly, likeminded people. All the question of who I am, what I like, what I want, what is me, what people want, what people intend with me - these can be answered.
Can they really?
Congrats if you came to the end of this post. It's appreciated.
Cheers,
onlything
