Holiday blues.

[Metalhead]

I plan on spending Thanksgiving all alone. Eat a frozen pizza and smoke some weed in isolation. Away from harmful family, but all of my friends will be with their good families, leaving me alone and isolated.

I could easily see myself binge eating in a situation like this one. And I am already close to being morbidly obese. I have developed a bit of a binge eating disorder, which my family is all too happy to keep rubbing my face into.

Shame the gym is closed tomorrow.

 

[Metalhead]

I probably should starve myself this weekend. Not have a Thanksgiving dinner. Just drink coffee and smoke weed.

I can't shake the words my parents keep hammering into me - that I am morbidly obese and that my fat is particularly unhealthy because it is all in my belly, the absolute WORST way for the body to carry it, and that they are obsessed over this because they love me and they do not want me to die in five years from now.

I know, they are body shaming me and I am taking it to heart. I also know this has been at the root of a lot of my binge eating the last couple of years. Which is why I am spending Thanksgiving alone.