I love this forum. Not strong enough of a word. I LOVE this forum. Adore? Cherish?
I have been a member of 5 forums including this one.
The first forum I took part in was actually an online MMORPG forum, the name of which game though I won't mention, but it was horrible, filled with the most vile people, all using memes every chance they could take. Sometimes my mind would start to think up bizarre things like a good portion of the people may be the same person because of the same things said in the same way, the same things being discussed with the same words, same everything. It was ruled by an elite few, the group of which included ALL of the moderators who were the worst of the bunch, trashing and making fun of the "lesser" "noobs" people every chance they had for the most menial and trivial things of which they considered mistakes in fitting in with the sub-culture. This distressed me beyond belief even though I rarely took part in any "group" discussion, even if it interested me, out of avoidance of the mentioned attacks. I was addicted to the game so I kept at it just avoiding the idiots the best I could. There were a few cool people though I have to admit. I eventually quit the game after I acquired all the items and stuff I wanted, and got bored. I consider this fortunate.
Two of the other forums I don't take part in any discussion and just use them as references and still visit on occasion to read up on whatever it is I'm looking for.
Another forum was a music forum which I joined and was excited to take part in the discussions. The very first post I made, I got told by a moderator who after almost immediately deleting my post, something like "nobody really cares about lists, best not to post them." I had just joined and was posting my favorite bands list on a music forum. I guess I did something wrong there. Nobody here attacks you for making any lists it seems!
And then there's this forum. A forum I found by mistake actually. Sort of. I was looking up more on Asperger's, obviously, because I believe I have this condition, It explains me to a very good degree. There are so many things I have in common with a very good portion of this community. It's uncanny, and quite the epiphany for me, as I have been searching for why I am the way I am for the better part of 14 years. I found good answers in the description? Symptoms? Apserger's Syndrome, has to be why. I feel it in my guts, and every bone in my body. I found in the symptoms things I experience that never even bothered me, but yet they are there but are different, much different from the average citizen of the world. Things have have deeply troubled me, that I've struggled with and been depressed about for years, and even things which I never would want to change. There's is too much there to be any inkling of a coincidence. And then there's the people here, people which I understand, people who explain things clearly, people who have very little interest in being the same as everyone else, wanting to fit in. People who are their own person, who have their own interests, likes, and dislikes. People that I can identify with to such a degree it seems unreal relative to the experience I've had in life. Like I told my mother, It's almost like I have found a whole large group of "me's". I guess I'm getting overly descriptive, but see... there... in another forum I would probably erase this and never even click on the post button, but because I feel a level of comfort here that I've never felt before, I can post this and not have to hope I don't get attacked or laughed at for some reason or another, and have the fear of never being able to live it down. This forum is wonderful, and I guess in that description, I have expressed how much I like this forum. I hope this isn't too long though.
