I did something stupid

[Starflowerpower87]

I have schizophrenia and I smoked pot to self medicate. People here warned me not to but I didn't listen. I started hearing voices every night a while back but I could still sleep. Then they started to go away. But I had been feeling numb and depressed for some time so I decided to self medicate with pot. It made me paranoid and anxious. When the effects started to wear off I felt pretty good but still paranoid about hearing voices. So I called my mom and she basically told me off because she was having a bad day. She called me an idiot for doing it. She did not help.

Anyway I have been waking up in the wee hours of the morning hearing voices. Every time I start to dose off I'll hear a voice and wake up. They say threatening things that make me scared. But I'm not a harm to myself or others unless you consider the lack of sleep making it hard to function. I'm already on high doses of medication. It's not working right now. It makes me extremely dehydrated at night because I have to drink two liters of water to feel quenched. I've been peeing less so I have to do blood work and a urinalyses to find out why. I'm afraid to take more drugs. Right now I'm taking risperidone and clopixol.

 

[Rodafina]

I'm sorry to hear about this situation, @Starflowerpower87. It sounds like the decision to smoke came from desperation, and that is totally understandable, given your challenges.

I think you have your own answer now, and all you can do is learn from this experience. You don't have to beat yourself up for doing something stupid, but just use this as information for the future.

I hope you can get relief from the voices as well as the depression and numbness. I know it's been frustrating and sometimes ineffective, but I think continuing to work with your mental health professionals is your best chance.

 

[Starflowerpower87]

I'm sorry to hear about this situation, @Starflowerpower87. It sounds like the decision to smoke came from desperation, and that is totally understandable, given your challenges.

I think you have your own answer now, and all you can do is learn from this experience. You don't have to beat yourself up for doing something stupid, but just use this as information for the future.

I hope you can get relief from the voices as well as the depression and numbness. I know it's been frustrating and sometimes ineffective, but I think continuing to work with your mental health professionals is your best chance.

Thank you. You always make me feel better.

 

[Starflowerpower87]

I'd go to the mental hospital but you have to wait in emerge for 12 hours to get down there. And it's full of sick people in the emergency room. I wish there was a quicker way to get to the mental hospital.

 

[Outdated]

I've smoked dope all my life but it really isn't a good drug for some people. Self discipline is required.

An old mate that I had a lot of respect for many years ago left a good impression on me, he was honest with himself as well as with others. When I offered him a pipe he said "Oh no, I can't smoke that stuff, that stuff makes me angry.".

Be true to yourself. Consider it a lesson learned without feeling guilt over it. Some people can smoke weed and some can't, that's just the way life is.

I don't think there's much use heading to a hospital, by the sounds of things by the time you manage to get seen to there'll be no THC left in your system anyway. Just consider it a lesson in life and move on.

 

[Rodafina]

I'd go to the mental hospital but you have to wait in emerge for 12 hours to get down there. And it's full of sick people in the emergency room. I wish there was a quicker way to get to the mental hospital.

That's a really unfortunate and way too common problem for people who are in need of psychiatric treatment. It's so frustrating that someone in your situation would have to do all that just to get treatment.

Urgent psych treatment sucks.

 

[Outdated]

Some of my own observances from smoking weed for more than 40 years. This might help explain some of your own symptoms and how it might interact with whatever other drugs you are taking. Other people with proper medical training could weigh in here, this is only my own personal observation.

One of your body's immediate reactions is to try and reset your blood sugar level. Part of this is all of a sudden you're thirsty and you need to do a wee.

If you smoke weed when your blood sugar level is already too low then you'll feel the blood drain from your face and you'll get all dizzy and need to lay down for a little while, like right now. No matter how much you think you don't feel like it, eating something, anything, instantly fixes the problem.

A handful of lollies, or a cheese and tomato sandwich, or a meat pie, doesn't matter, the act of eating something switches your body in to a different mode and all of a sudden everything all comes good again.

 

[Ronald Zeeman]

I have never smoked pot, my wife did on occasion couple of years ago ate an edible could not leave party until early morning. she has never touched it again learned lesson, not harmless. My youngest brother smoked joint at with woman he wanted to pickup ended in hospital. I remember when cocaine was considered harmless non addictive.
My older brother having had mental health issues always made me wary. opiates had very strange effects on my mother, when she took them as pain killers.

 

[NB79]

i tried a weed ciga only once, it didn't do anything to me, so i said 'this is pointless, why do this'.

 

[Mary Terry]

Some of my own observances from smoking weed for more than 40 years. This might help explain some of your own symptoms and how it might interact with whatever other drugs you are taking. Other people with proper medical training could weigh in here, this is only my own personal observation.

One of your body's immediate reactions is to try and reset your blood sugar level. Part of this is all of a sudden you're thirsty and you need to do a wee.

If you smoke weed when your blood sugar level is already too low then you'll feel the blood drain from your face and you'll get all dizzy and need to lay down for a little while, like right now. No matter how much you think you don't feel like it, eating something, anything, instantly fixes the problem.

A handful of lollies, or a cheese and tomato sandwich, or a meat pie, doesn't matter, the act of eating something switches your body in to a different mode and all of a sudden everything all comes good again.

I understand that marijuana causes blood pressure to drop. It affects the heart almost immediately. That's risky, especially if someone already has a diagnosed BP issue and takes medication for it.

I smoked some pot a hundred years ago when I was in college. It made me lazy, unmotivated, paranoid, hungry, and affected my ability to concentrate and study. I don't recall ever feeling like I was having a good time or enjoying myself when I was stoned. I just felt stoned.

But I know people who, like you, have smoked pot for decades and don't seem to have any obvious ill effects. Most of them say they do it to relax and some do it to help them fall sleep. I'll stick with my nightly glass of French Bordeaux wine, as long as I can afford imported wine. Don't know yet what the new U.S. tariffs are going to do to French wine. Heaven forbid that I should have to settle for California wines!