inkfingers
21 year old artist
I am tired of eating. I hate being hungry, but I also hate having to stop and eat a few times (or more) a day. I want to go on a fast so that I don't have to bother listening to my hunger cues, and so that I don't have to eat so much all the time. I think I could probably fast for a couple weeks without any adverse side effects because I have a bit of fat on me, but my mom said that I'll die if I don't eat. I don't understand this, because I mentioned fasting and praying, and she said I should do it if I felt led to (My family and I are Christians, by the way).
So... that seemed a bit contradictory. I think she probably just doesn't want me to be anorexic again, but this isn't about weight, its about eating. I am sick and tired of eating and want to be done with it. I could try eating at a couple designated times a day so that I don't have to think about it, but I've tried that before and it just makes me more stressed out because I have to plan my meals. So I'm really fed up with this whole situation.
Does anyone else feel this way? Like the act of eating sounds disgusting and gross and you just don't want to do it anymore?
So... that seemed a bit contradictory. I think she probably just doesn't want me to be anorexic again, but this isn't about weight, its about eating. I am sick and tired of eating and want to be done with it. I could try eating at a couple designated times a day so that I don't have to think about it, but I've tried that before and it just makes me more stressed out because I have to plan my meals. So I'm really fed up with this whole situation.
Does anyone else feel this way? Like the act of eating sounds disgusting and gross and you just don't want to do it anymore?