Lately I have had this repetitive thought that my day to day life is pretty boring and bland. I think I have this realization when I am being more social and hear about other people's lives and experiences. Inevitably I compare their experiences to my one and it makes me feel like I have had a pretty narrow set of experiences and have missed out on many things. This seems to be a recurring feeling - the feeling of missing out on the good things in life.
For a many years I have been very focused on working and on my main interest. Everything else kind of came secondary. These two items still are my main focus, but probably not to the degree they had been. Work in particular has improved in that my current job does not interfere as much with my personal life as some past jobs did. Some of the past jobs required me to work a lot of hours which interfered with my personal life. During our busy time of the year, I really had no life. My life would consistent of working all day and then taking care of things like eating, cooking, sleeping, shopping. I also tried to fit in my main interest, but even that took a big hit during the busy season. Mentally it would throw me into depression and anxiety to some degree. I am not sure why I did it for so many years - perhaps I felt like there was not any other options for me. But I am sure there were other options, I just didn't know what to do. If I could go back, I would not have put myself through those many years of focusing so much on working. Instead I would have focused more on building my personal life to what I wanted it to be and work life would have come secondary. But since I grew up on a farm, working hard was instilled in me as a positive trait. And I still think it is a positive trait, but it can also cause harm if it is not put in check. It is also can go unchecked if you combine it with personality traits of being a people pleaser, being loyal, and just being a bit naïve in thinking employers and co-workers don't lie and are looking out for your best interest all the time. The combination of all these factors led me to overfocussing on my work life at the expense of building a personal life. I guess I always just thought that if I worked hard at work eventually it would lead to a happy personal life as well. Plus I did not really know how to go about improving my personal life and I am not sure I still know how to.
Back to my feelings of having a boring life. I work in accounting and tax. The profession is stereotypically boring. I will say that it can be boring at times, but not always. It can be stressful. There is a variety of jobs and some can be more boring than others. In my personal life, I have had a narrow set of experiences. I have never been in a serious relationship. I have primarily focused on my main interest which has provided a lot of enjoyment in my life. At times it has also caused pain and frustrations. Due to not being able to develop a large social network when I was younger, I did not have to opportunity to try new things. I never really wanted to because I had little confidence in myself. I didn't really understand that many people try new things just for the experience and don't worry too much about failure. You could say that I missed out on the "experimental" stage of life. As a result of these missed opportunities, it made adult life more difficult because I never really learned much about myself; my likes and dislikes, my strengths and weaknesses, my desires, my skills. As a result, I made some life and job decisions that were not great and lead to learning things to hard way and delay in moving forward in life. I didn't know myself well enough to have the information necessary to make big decisions. I always felt like I was guessing when it came to making some of life's biggest decisions.
I am somewhat bored with my day to day life and I feel like that is going to difficult to change. I imagine there are others who feel the same way. I also live in a somewhat smaller city near where I grew up. Since it is not that big of a city there are less opportunities to find groups to join and try new things.
For a many years I have been very focused on working and on my main interest. Everything else kind of came secondary. These two items still are my main focus, but probably not to the degree they had been. Work in particular has improved in that my current job does not interfere as much with my personal life as some past jobs did. Some of the past jobs required me to work a lot of hours which interfered with my personal life. During our busy time of the year, I really had no life. My life would consistent of working all day and then taking care of things like eating, cooking, sleeping, shopping. I also tried to fit in my main interest, but even that took a big hit during the busy season. Mentally it would throw me into depression and anxiety to some degree. I am not sure why I did it for so many years - perhaps I felt like there was not any other options for me. But I am sure there were other options, I just didn't know what to do. If I could go back, I would not have put myself through those many years of focusing so much on working. Instead I would have focused more on building my personal life to what I wanted it to be and work life would have come secondary. But since I grew up on a farm, working hard was instilled in me as a positive trait. And I still think it is a positive trait, but it can also cause harm if it is not put in check. It is also can go unchecked if you combine it with personality traits of being a people pleaser, being loyal, and just being a bit naïve in thinking employers and co-workers don't lie and are looking out for your best interest all the time. The combination of all these factors led me to overfocussing on my work life at the expense of building a personal life. I guess I always just thought that if I worked hard at work eventually it would lead to a happy personal life as well. Plus I did not really know how to go about improving my personal life and I am not sure I still know how to.
Back to my feelings of having a boring life. I work in accounting and tax. The profession is stereotypically boring. I will say that it can be boring at times, but not always. It can be stressful. There is a variety of jobs and some can be more boring than others. In my personal life, I have had a narrow set of experiences. I have never been in a serious relationship. I have primarily focused on my main interest which has provided a lot of enjoyment in my life. At times it has also caused pain and frustrations. Due to not being able to develop a large social network when I was younger, I did not have to opportunity to try new things. I never really wanted to because I had little confidence in myself. I didn't really understand that many people try new things just for the experience and don't worry too much about failure. You could say that I missed out on the "experimental" stage of life. As a result of these missed opportunities, it made adult life more difficult because I never really learned much about myself; my likes and dislikes, my strengths and weaknesses, my desires, my skills. As a result, I made some life and job decisions that were not great and lead to learning things to hard way and delay in moving forward in life. I didn't know myself well enough to have the information necessary to make big decisions. I always felt like I was guessing when it came to making some of life's biggest decisions.
I am somewhat bored with my day to day life and I feel like that is going to difficult to change. I imagine there are others who feel the same way. I also live in a somewhat smaller city near where I grew up. Since it is not that big of a city there are less opportunities to find groups to join and try new things.
