i hate being aware of certain things

[laurie]

worst thing EVER : when i'm sitting there: relaxing, minding my own business and suddenly the thought that the inside of me is dark pops into my mind! certain thoughts and realisations cause a visceral reaction in me. examples would be the uncomfortable thought that if you removed your nail your fingers would be shaped weirdly and indented, the thought that some people have rings stuck on their fingers, the awareness of my heart beating. feelings too! like when i leave a hairband on my wrist and it creates a red indentation in my wrist. it makes me so uncomfortable to think of.

 

[tree]

 

[garnetflower13]

Intrusive thoughts. I can relate.

 

[Martha Ferris]

I think you need to draw yourself away from the emotion triggered by these things and focus on the actual event realistically. Think don't react.

OK so a hair band left a red mark on your wrist. Other than not liking it what problem does it cause? The mark will go away. You are not being harmed in any way. So what is the problem? No this is not rhetorical. What is the problem?
You are aware of your heart beating? It beats on average between 60 and 100 beats per minute every minute of every day you are alive. That is a fact. Is there anything to react to about this? If it didn't beat you would be dead.

I have a visceral reaction to having my fingernails removed but that has to do with the fact that it would hurt like hell and that is not something I would want to experience. Just thinking about it makes me cringe in horror. For you it is how your fingers would look without nails. I have a visceral reaction to eye balls and brains. Eeeeewwww. There it is but that is where it ends. Many nurses can't do mucus. Eeeewwww. They refuse to suction people. Call Respiratory Therapy! Mucus doesn't bother me. (I am a Respiratory Therapist.)
Really look at what bothers you and why. Figure it out. Face it. Look it squarely in the eye.

You can acknowledge your feelings, your likes and dislikes, but you don't have to allow them to adversely affect you and getting upset about these things is not doing you any good. Focus on the reality not on how you feel.

The more we focus on a thought the more imbedded it becomes in our brain. When these feelings or thoughts happen change the thought. Create a new thought pathway. Feelings just are it's what we do about them that matters.

 

[watersprite]

A friend of mine used to quasi-tease me about this sort of thing; he’d say, “stop reacting to your reactions.”
At that point I’d get angry but there is some wisdom buried in there.
If my thoughts are going to hurt me then it’s time for me to take a look, & then take action, to choose to do some internal house-keeping. Always nice when the dust clears.

 

[Yeshuasdaughter]

I don't know if this is helpful, but try to be mindful of each part of your body as you notice it. Be thankful that your heart is so strong. Be thankful for your hands that can work and create. Be thankful you have all your nails. Be thankful for a mind that can think and imagine. And if you see an indent on your skin, it means you need to drink more water. That's always good advice. Go drink some water right now.

 

[Crossbreed]

I am an amateur figure artist.
When I studied anatomy in that pursuit [mostly the musculo-skeletal system], I was very overwhelmed by the sense of fragility in our bodies.*
I eventually made peace with that, though.

*They are also robust in some ways.

 

[Au Naturel]

It sounds like it happens when your mind is just idling along. I would launch a bit of intentional distraction. Start doing something that demands your attention. Give your brain something else to work with. It might be knitting or listening to music or exercise or even watching something interesting on the tele.

Don't engage with the thoughts even if it is to "fight" them. Engagement strengthens them.

 

[Aspychata]

Maybe write creepy stories. The best authors write in such a way that we see, feel the darkness. It's a gift if you chose to see it this way.

Then you have channeled this energy into a perhaps an ability to make a living.

Otherwise, the distraction route, music,mediation, singing, watching comedy perhaps?

 

[Fino]

I often suddenly have images in my mind of terrible, violent things happening, and I flinch and wonder if they're about to happen.

 

[Neonatal RRT]