what happens with me is I got harassed in school which eventually originated in OCD diagnosis which doesn’t ready fit
By the time I went to college I was heavily into bodybuilding which seemed to make me a target for gay males. I got sexually assaulted by a gay minority couple, got assigned a gay, gay advocate at university, checked myself into mental ward but gay, gay advocates, seemed to see the problem was with my repressed homosexuality or my brain being malformed or endless disorders. Which led to me believing that issue was with me which led to multiple more gay sexual assaults and manipulations
But I am not gay, but 30 some years of beat downs for upsetting the status quo are making me feel feel like I am reaching the end of my life. I lost my ex-gf over this due to her gay couples friends input and gay advocate psychs I was seeing and her gay advocate friend and on and on. I am giving up on life. I now drink about 16 beers a day
But talking to psych community always involves upsetting them over gay things. What the hell do I do? I am not gay and I do not hate gays, I just want an out and to live the rest of my days in piece. But how do I get started back in the psych system without mentioning gay thongs which will upset everyone? I mean they ask what is my history, so how do I lie or what can I think to make up to lie about so psychswill just leave me alone about gay things?
And there are a bunch of sexual assaults and manipulations which have never been addressed. But they will never will be addressed and will always be used against me due to the power structure, I understand this now. I just give up. I am not looking for equality any more, I just want an escape and help now.
By the time I went to college I was heavily into bodybuilding which seemed to make me a target for gay males. I got sexually assaulted by a gay minority couple, got assigned a gay, gay advocate at university, checked myself into mental ward but gay, gay advocates, seemed to see the problem was with my repressed homosexuality or my brain being malformed or endless disorders. Which led to me believing that issue was with me which led to multiple more gay sexual assaults and manipulations
But I am not gay, but 30 some years of beat downs for upsetting the status quo are making me feel feel like I am reaching the end of my life. I lost my ex-gf over this due to her gay couples friends input and gay advocate psychs I was seeing and her gay advocate friend and on and on. I am giving up on life. I now drink about 16 beers a day
But talking to psych community always involves upsetting them over gay things. What the hell do I do? I am not gay and I do not hate gays, I just want an out and to live the rest of my days in piece. But how do I get started back in the psych system without mentioning gay thongs which will upset everyone? I mean they ask what is my history, so how do I lie or what can I think to make up to lie about so psychswill just leave me alone about gay things?
And there are a bunch of sexual assaults and manipulations which have never been addressed. But they will never will be addressed and will always be used against me due to the power structure, I understand this now. I just give up. I am not looking for equality any more, I just want an escape and help now.
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