Excuse the Mr Bean quote when he was asked what he did when he went to the USA in that film. The title I was going to use for this thread reminded me of that quote. Here is the title I intended.
WATCHING...
For my first few years of school, at every play time in the playground I would stand in the corner away from all the other kids and watch. I would not play. All the other kids all running around. It was all too much for me! I found the quietest corner of the yard I was allowed to be and I just stood there.... Every play time I returned to the same spot and got upset if another kid tried to get me to play or came too close to "My spot".
Whenever I faced a new senario involving groups of kids and as I got older, groups of people, I would go quiet and watch, as watching is what I did!
The only problem to this is that not being included one becomes a target to bullies and those who see one is on ones own and tries to force one to get involved... So I learned how to mask, and later learned in life to be the first to start a conversation with a silly remark and once people who didn't know each other started talking, I would then go quiet because I would have then diverted attention away from me so I could then go quiet by myself and watch, without anyone realizing I was quiet if that makes sense? As people don't like being watched if they notice they are being watched!
Now I do not know if watching is an autistic thing. When I got more confident later in life, I started being confident in talking, but then when I started I wouldn't shut up! Haha!
WATCHING...
For my first few years of school, at every play time in the playground I would stand in the corner away from all the other kids and watch. I would not play. All the other kids all running around. It was all too much for me! I found the quietest corner of the yard I was allowed to be and I just stood there.... Every play time I returned to the same spot and got upset if another kid tried to get me to play or came too close to "My spot".
Whenever I faced a new senario involving groups of kids and as I got older, groups of people, I would go quiet and watch, as watching is what I did!
The only problem to this is that not being included one becomes a target to bullies and those who see one is on ones own and tries to force one to get involved... So I learned how to mask, and later learned in life to be the first to start a conversation with a silly remark and once people who didn't know each other started talking, I would then go quiet because I would have then diverted attention away from me so I could then go quiet by myself and watch, without anyone realizing I was quiet if that makes sense? As people don't like being watched if they notice they are being watched!
Now I do not know if watching is an autistic thing. When I got more confident later in life, I started being confident in talking, but then when I started I wouldn't shut up! Haha!
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