I'm losing my mind!

[DaRKMsOul18]

I'm going to he completely straight here... So... Get ready for the storm... Typing in all caps helps me express my anger as well..

I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!! I have Asperger's, ADHD,ADD!!!!

I ALWAYS HAVE THIS HYPER CLOUDY MIND FEELING!!!! AND I DO NOT KNOW!!! IDK IF THIS MAKES ME NOT BE ABLE TO LEARN OR WHAT!!!! BUT I WANT THIS GONE!!!! I FEEL LIKE IM TRAPPED!!! AND IT WONT STOP!!!!

I DON'T KNOW WHAT THIS IS!!! OR WHAT IT'S DOING TO ME!!!

BUT I JUST... CANT...

I'm gonna try to calm down...

And whenever I try to do something, I lose focus of it!!!

Just yesterday I was trying to decrypt a cipher, but I could... LIKE IDK, LONG ENOUGH TO EVEN THINK OF A STRATEGY!!!

ASPERGERS PLUS ADHD IS HELL!

Here's a video that explains it with just Aspergers:

YOU SEE THE HELL OF HAVING ASD AND ADHD?!

And watch the eventual anger outburst one of the people have, that is what I feel like, but I put the anger in this instead!

Even though, that is perfect, I'll write how I feel and rant when I'm angry... perfect.

 

[Dillon]

First of all what do you mean you’re not able to learn?? I bet you’re a pretty smart guy ( trying to say it in a positive way)
I think everyone here feels the same way as you do but don’t beat yourself over something you can’t control.
Although I do not have the ADD or the ADHD (although I feel like I have one of them at times not sur) I myself hate some of my traits as an aspie where I cannot bear myself at times.
What I do if I loose thought of something is to just back away from it for a while and come back to it. I loose focus in things all the time.

Just wondering are you taking any meds for you concentration? I feel like that would help you and maybe you depression as well

I guess I’m saying all of this is because for the last few days I’ve seen nothing but people get upset anywhere Ive been in public like when I went out to eat or where ever the past few days so that’s why I feel like saying something to cheer you up
Don’t let a problem like this bring you down in who you are as a person.

 

[DaRKMsOul18]

First of all what do you mean you’re not able to learn?? I bet you’re a pretty smart guy ( trying to say it in a positive way)
I think everyone here feels the same way as you do but don’t beat yourself over something you can’t control.
Although I do not have the ADD or the ADHD (although I feel like I have one of them at times not sur) I myself hate some of my traits as an aspie where I cannot bear myself at times.
What I do if I loose thought of something is to just back away from it for a while and come back to it. I loose focus in things all the time.

Just wondering are you taking any meds for you concentration? I feel like that would help you and maybe you depression as well

I guess I’m saying all of this is because for the last few days I’ve seen nothing but people get upset anywhere Ive been in public like when I went out to eat or where ever the past few days so that’s why I feel like saying something to cheer you up
Don’t let a problem like this bring you down in who you are as a person.

Thank you.

You know, you're right, my IQ and intelligence are high, I bet you are smart as well, but...

I can learn, but it's not easy because of my ADD/ADHD, but I can memorize things easily.

The ADHD just makes it hard to concentrate, and in turn, learn.

I probably do have mild depression, but I have no intentions to hurt myself! And maybe meds would help, but I tried several years ago and it was BAAAAAAAAD, but, I might want to try again.

But I'm scared, because, first, the medicine made me very ill for a while, it made my anger issues worse than they ever were, ever, I was a young child in elementary school, I threw stuff and was a threat to the class, I had to leave the class a lot and more!

So..

 

[Gracey]

It may do you a world of good to have a rant when you’re frustrated?

There’s a ranting thread on site and an opportunity to start your own blog.

If you’re writing about your frustration in short bursts it may be cathartic for you?

 

[SusanLR]

I hear this alot with meds, that they make you feel worse than better.
They all did with me when I tried different antidepressants.
I did not know I had Aspergers at that time and now the doctors agree
with the way we are wired, many times antidepressants do not set well with people with ASD.

Holding those emotions inside isn't healthy either.
I've had to learn to do that now that I am living with someone who doesn't understand
about meltdowns, high anxiety, and panic attacks.
The person has a no tolerance for anything he deems a weakness.
Internalizing the anxiety or anger has caused physical problems to happen.
Doctors recognise this is true when internal stress is held inside day after day
it will manifest itself through physical ailments. Conversion disorder.

 

[DaRKMsOul18]

It may do you a world of good to have a rant when you’re frustrated?

There’s a ranting thread on site and an opportunity to start your own blog.

If you’re writing about your frustration in short bursts it may be cathartic for you?

Or, I could just make a notebook?

Or use Evernote... Or yes, make a forum, but now I'm not sure!

Where's the ranting thread?

I feel like this is the only place where I could post and people wouldn't descriminate or something, because I'm Autistic?

 

[Dillon]

Thank you.

You know, you're right, my IQ and intelligence are high, I bet you are smart as well, but...

I can learn, but it's not easy because of my ADD/ADHD, but I can memorize things easily.

The ADHD just makes it hard to concentrate, and in turn, learn.

I probably do have mild depression, but I have no intentions to hurt myself! And maybe meds would help, but I tried several years ago and it was BAAAAAAAAD, but, I might want to try again.

But I'm scared, because, first, the medicine made me very ill for a while, it made my anger issues worse than they ever were, ever, I was a young child in elementary school, I threw stuff and was a threat to the class, I had to leave the class a lot and more!

So..

I can understand how hard it is having ADHD. I have a friend who has a hard time with his ADHD but he tends to manage even though he doesn’t have aspergers....lucky him.

Also It’s not always a good things to be on a med if you have already tried one that made you bad cause hey I’ve been there. I am taking one for anxiety and focus which is called Lexapro which really helps me out. But depending if you have tried it or not take it in a small does. If you were ever to take that med DO NOT TAKE A HIGHER DOSE, I experienced some bad side affects just a few months ago but luckily I’m back on my original dose. I’m just saying this as an option but you don’t have to necessarily take it if you don’t want to.

 

[tree]

Where's the ranting thread?

Are you looking for this? > https://www.autismforums.com/threads/the-ranting-room.7289/page-89

 

[Dillon]

Or, I could just make a notebook?

Or use Evernote... Or yes, make a forum, but now I'm not sure!

Where's the ranting thread?

I feel like this is the only place where I could post and people wouldn't descriminate or something, because I'm Autistic?

For the people who like to discrimate and judge you I say screw them. At the end of the day the people who love to do nothing but criticize you are only hurting themselves. As I see it the ones who love to be jerks on purpose to others are actually being jerks to themselves.

 

[DaRKMsOul18]

Are you looking for this? > https://www.autismforums.com/threads/the-ranting-room.7289/page-89

Thank you

 

[Nick12]

I just want to say NEVER NEVER GIVE UP I WISH YOU A VERRY VERRY HAPPY DAY