I'm not able to understand reasons why I'm afraid of risk, taking a risk to change

[Ann]

Hi, my name is Ann and I have gone to see Psychologists as long ago as the 1960's, what it is I am living with could be Aspergers, and I don't know. If I'm given two or more choices as I am given a chance to answer which one I take then usually, its the second or last choice for I feel its like I do so repeatedly like that. Its a risk in my mind to make other choice, think it over and think with foresight if you get what I'm writing and because I don't understand the rules. I sense a stringency, like, that could just be there in my mind. Other than that, I say hello! and I would like to ask if others feel a need in their lives for repetition to sort of repeat things. A need for change is in my life today. I analyzed myself and called it rumination though, moreover, I believe its the need for repetitious behavior and some ruminating. There was not much known about Aspergers syndrome in the late '60's and early '70's and I don't believe I could pay to get diagnosed properly.

 

[Judge]

Welcome to AC, Ann. I have never been formally diagnosed for being on the spectrum. I have however been formally diagnosed long ago with chronic clinical depression as well as Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Two conditions quite common- and comorbid to Autism Spectrum Disorder.

Rituals- repetition of things is part of my OCD. Such as checking to see that I locked a door or engaged an alarm. Over and over and over on occasion. It's an obsession- and a compulsion for me. I also often imagine terrible consequences for benign actions which don't exist among others. Almost like a form of superstition "on steroids" at times.

You haven't said enough for me to comment on whether you might be on the spectrum of autism. However you may indeed have some form of OCD. You might consider checking to see how you score on the Yale-Brown Obsessive Compulsive Scale. Of course it's no substitute for medical evaluation.

https://psychology-tools.com/yale-brown-obsessive-compulsive-scale/

 

[camerartus]

Hi, my name is Ann and I have gone to see Psychologists as long ago as the 1960's, what it is I am living with could be Aspergers, and I don't know. If I'm given two or more choices as I am given a chance to answer which one I take then usually, its the second or last choice for I feel its like I do so repeatedly like that. Its a risk in my mind to make other choice, think it over and think with foresight if you get what I'm writing and because I don't understand the rules. I sense a stringency, like, that could just be there in my mind. Other than that, I say hello! and I would like to ask if others feel a need in their lives for repetition to sort of repeat things. A need for change is in my life today. I analyzed myself and called it rumination though, moreover, I believe its the need for repetitious behavior and some ruminating. There was not much known about Aspergers syndrome in the late '60's and early '70's and I don't believe I could pay to get diagnosed properly.

Isn't it amazingly hard, in this day and age, how hard it is to get properly diagnosed?

 

[Cosmophylla]

Hi Ann, welcome to AC. I hope you are able to find some answers to your questions here.

 

[Ann]

Welcome to AC, Ann. I have never been formally diagnosed for being on the spectrum. I have however been formally diagnosed long ago with chronic clinical depression as well as Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. Two conditions quite common- and comorbid to Autism Spectrum Disorder.

Rituals- repetition of things is part of my OCD. Such as checking to see that I locked a door or engaged an alarm. Over and over and over on occasion. It's an obsession- and a compulsion for me. I also often imagine terrible consequences for benign actions which don't exist among others. Almost like a form of superstition "on steroids" at times.

You haven't said enough for me to comment on whether you might be on the spectrum of autism. However you may indeed have some form of OCD. You might consider checking to see how you score on the Yale-Brown Obsessive Compulsive Scale. Of course it's no substitute for medical evaluation.

https://psychology-tools.com/yale-brown-obsessive-compulsive-scale/

Hello - Here is my reply to your kind message, and yes I've been living with OCD. I'll paraphrase a writer, People with Asperger's simply don't know how to connect with others. I feel comfortable with rules reaching out to another. From an article I'll quote in part (I just wrote to the site requesting permission to give their link to the article on Asperger's it reads: "a game without rules and involvement with another child has too many risks for him. What "if the child doesn't like him? ..."What if he has to forgive his friend even if he doesn't really mean it?" I am uncertain of how to connect, like this because of the uncertainty I am a loner. pretty much in isolation. This writer says it could be like, and I quote, this feeling like: 'locked in isolation" The very beauty of his online article shows me some insights.

As I feel the stringencies when offered two or more choices...I just don't want to risk making a choice another doesn't wish for me. Its pondered a little and I ask myself, are other people more strong willed? I consider myself to have strong will or fairly so, moreover I am affected easily whenever I believe others are more strong. in will power. Persons living with Asperger's often make the last choice. consecutive in the choices the last choice another person suggests to one is taken, right. offered and accepting the last choice is a way which iis easier--its somewhere I had read that/

 

[Judge]

Hello - Here is my reply to your kind message, and yes I've been living with OCD. I'll paraphrase a writer, People with Asperger's simply don't know how to connect with others. I feel comfortable with rules reaching out to another. From an article I'll quote in part (I just wrote to the site requesting permission to give their link to the article on Asperger's it reads: "a game without rules and involvement with another child has too many risks for him. What "if the child doesn't like him? ..."What if he has to forgive his friend even if he doesn't really mean it?" I am uncertain of how to connect, like this because of the uncertainty I am a loner. pretty much in isolation. This writer says it could be like, and I quote, this feeling like: 'locked in isolation" The very beauty of his online article shows me some insights.

As I feel the stringencies when offered two or more choices...I just don't want to risk making a choice another doesn't wish for me. Its pondered a little and I ask myself, are other people more strong willed? I consider myself to have strong will or fairly so, moreover I am affected easily whenever I believe others are more strong. in will power. Persons living with Asperger's often make the last choice. consecutive in the choices the last choice another person suggests to one is taken, right. offered and accepting the last choice is a way which iis easier--its somewhere I had read that/

Interesting way to put it all. Perhaps why I did well as an insurance underwriter. Having to assess risk all day long. But with a very strict and defined set of rules in place at all times. But in this context my executive functioning is relatively high.

We do have an amusing saying here though. That "if you've seen one Aspie, you've seen one Aspie." In as much as we might appear similar over our traits and behaviors, that we really can be quite different. Quite an eclectic bunch. But it's the common frame of reference that I find personally satisfying. Yet another way to validate who- and what we actually are neurologically speaking.