I have been very sick and apologize for not participating in any threads for such a long time... I was simply not in any mental condition to do so. But I've been feeling better of late and have decided to share some of what I've been living.
I don't understand why it is that every time I'm in the presence of others, wether I'm driving or in a grocery store or walking down the street... I always seem to imagine that people around me are analyzing and criticizing me. It even goes to the point where I see them become so angry that their faces turn red and shape into furious stares and seem to be yelling at me, like I did something absolutely horrible and unacceptable. It's really frightening. I keep telling myself that It's only my imagination and that they probably don't even realize that I exist and I blink and give myself a shake and they appear normal, like they never noticed me. But it usually starts up again with the next person I see.
To be clear, I don't physically see any changes in the peoples faces and actions, I seem to be imagining and creating them.
I don't understand why this is happening, maybe the fact that I've suffered from a severe depression for the last 3 years and secluded myself for almost the whole time... Maybe I'm not used to dealing with others anymore (not that I ever was). But maybe it's gotten worse.
I don't know what to do.
Has anybody else lived anything like this?
I don't understand why it is that every time I'm in the presence of others, wether I'm driving or in a grocery store or walking down the street... I always seem to imagine that people around me are analyzing and criticizing me. It even goes to the point where I see them become so angry that their faces turn red and shape into furious stares and seem to be yelling at me, like I did something absolutely horrible and unacceptable. It's really frightening. I keep telling myself that It's only my imagination and that they probably don't even realize that I exist and I blink and give myself a shake and they appear normal, like they never noticed me. But it usually starts up again with the next person I see.
To be clear, I don't physically see any changes in the peoples faces and actions, I seem to be imagining and creating them.
I don't understand why this is happening, maybe the fact that I've suffered from a severe depression for the last 3 years and secluded myself for almost the whole time... Maybe I'm not used to dealing with others anymore (not that I ever was). But maybe it's gotten worse.
I don't know what to do.
Has anybody else lived anything like this?
