Rachel Albritton
grasping life by the horns
i swear its times like these where i wish i had my own dang car. I am forced to have to sit in this house and hear everyone in my family call me a hypochondriac and tell me that the wound i have right now does not need to be seen by a dr. I HAVE A GAPING HOLE IN MY SHIN! 24 hours ago, i was walking through an abandoned yard beside my house, a shortcut to go to my sister's house. Well, unbeknown to me, there was a metal pipe sticking out of the ground....i tripped over it. i thought i could make it to my sister's until i looked down to see blood quickly pooling on my pants. i lifted my pant leg and there was a gash, bleeding quite profusely, in my leg. I went home, got the majority of the bleeding to stop, then told my mom (who was working) to come home and see if she needs me to take it to get stitches. Well for someone who makes a big deal when i want to go to school and makes me stay here because i apparently cant do anything, she thinks this gaping hole doesnt need stitches...that it will heal from the inside out. 24 hours later it is still bleeding and i can see in the small hole, into my leg. If my twin brother had gotten hurt this badly, she would RUSH him to the ER, no questions asked. I dont know why everyone is so insistent on calling me a hypochondriac when i am cautious and i know my own dang body. I do not want to get an infection and then have HER tell me "oh well dont tell the doctor i took this long to take you to get it looked at". Like she did when i told her i had an ear infection and she didnt believe me until i was writhing in pain with 2 ears i couldn't hear out of while going to school. its times like these when i wish i was on my own...free to go to the dr about something that i am concerned about. when i wish i could tell someone something and they would listen. its times like these i wish i were dead. its not like anyone cares about damaged old rachel anyway. the basket case, the hypochondriac, the one that always gets the short end of the stick, the one whose dad abandoned her for no apparent reason.