I recenrly spend listening to death to the star wars disney - let it flow - let if flow parody. I think that temporary answers the question. After 20 years controlling my melddown, it is at boiling point. And that song felt good.....so good.
As a side note I am a huge fan of emperor palpatine and how he master fully outplayed the whole jedi counsil and the whole republic. No offense, but emperor palpatine is the sophisticated version of hitler of course
, since starwars is a lot based on the memory of WW2. Dark Vader just being the emperor's bi***.
But that is about where it stops. Nah I wouldn't use the force for small mundane things. But like a evil druid I would be part of the whole balancing of the force. For balance between sides is something I hold dear. Whomever is outnumbered, outgunned and outmaneuvred can expect an ally.
Back to Starwars. I would use the jedi side of the force 95% of the time. But I sense that the last 5% of my powers would be the really powerful ones. I still want to play that old republic game to see what there opinion about me is
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ps that 95% in control and 5% a complete unstoppable force of nature sounds so like an aspie melddown. So guessing from the two answers given and the guessing challenge in the first post, I go for jedi on the outside, a hurricane of sith force on the inside wanting to come out
. It probably would be better if I balance that 95% to 5% more to 50% 50% like the dark jedi's. And that is what I am doing when I acknowledge the sith in me. To at the moment I rather see myself as a bright sith.
Why a bright sith. Because I am tired of of yoda saying ignore the fear, samual jackson saying ignore the hate and obai-one whining about no relationships. Only by being in balance do I feel I strive for the smaller evil, and the bigger good. (sorry that would be dungeons and dragons, but heck......it is an archetype of humanity there are two sides in ethernal struggle.).
ps. One correction. Yodo is right. Ignore the fear. The fear of not being yourself. As far as I can say it is that fear, that triggered my melddown in the end. I should have spoken up earlier that I was not fine with what people where doing. And I should not have feared being a social outcast. Yoda being the wise one again
. Me and yoda together, we would have crushed that Palpatine. For he is my hero, but more of an keep your friends close and your enemies closer style.