Annie White
If you're Aspie and you know it, flap your hands!
Hello everyone.
Like many of you, I have my own types of difficulties with my diagnosed Aspergers.
I cannot do chit-chat so easily and don't see a point to. A lot of normal chatter confuses the hell out of me. Plus I simply find myself uninterested in things people seem to be interested in. Vise versa. (No one wants to talk about tear downs or building crystal radio capacitors. I don't want to talk about Facebook posts) <example. This even effects my relationships and I mostly just let them finish what they're saying so it can be over with. I score a high IQ, 121, so dealing with average is like speaking a different kind of english for us both. If I were NT with a high IQ that would be awesome but... A few of my friends, don't even talk to me anymore. I've let go.
I need to keep an extreme organizer (I plan my days out weekly and keep an un-dated planner) I HAVE TO. Also with hygiene. I can't be dirty, I just can't. I have given myself instructions for a hygiene ritual. I think a lot of people could probably benefit from LOL. I also plan my gym visits and I am highly aware of what's in my food.
Looking deeply into your eyes... CREEPS ME OUT! I've always been uncomfortable with eye contact. I don't think that will be anything I can do anything about. It's hard to look in my boyfriends eyes for instance. On contrary, I enjoy looking at my daughter because she's so cute and her cute little eyes are beautiful.
Other things I am weak against: Bright or strange lights (my house has xmas lights decorated inside so I can switch the mood/or colors, and I feel odd having the dining room light on. Loud sounds, and I really can't do smells. I stay away from menstraiting females (I can tell) and limit my public appearances. Sense of smell is why I constantly have to be clean. I smell myself, when no one else would otherwise be able to.
All these things combined, I can't work due to these things being so largely disabling for me. So I am a genius on SSI. I feel like I've been robbed. All while appearing "NORMAL" to those who misunderstand autism. I haven't really gotten too much negativity about it. When I explain it to others, it seems to make sense to them. "Oh yeah I guess you are autistic!" I am lucky for that. But still, I wish I could be doing more with myself and I feel like my brain is waisted. So I play games and teach my (proving to be NT) daughter all kinds of useful things. I am planning to take early childhood education for homeschooling. She's only 2 years old currently after all.
I'd love to also speak with some other Aspie parents if you're here. I just need support and I offer some in exchange or for freely. There isn't a lot of resources online that I've been able to find for parents with this issue. Mainly the other way around.
Thank you for your time.
Like many of you, I have my own types of difficulties with my diagnosed Aspergers.
I cannot do chit-chat so easily and don't see a point to. A lot of normal chatter confuses the hell out of me. Plus I simply find myself uninterested in things people seem to be interested in. Vise versa. (No one wants to talk about tear downs or building crystal radio capacitors. I don't want to talk about Facebook posts) <example. This even effects my relationships and I mostly just let them finish what they're saying so it can be over with. I score a high IQ, 121, so dealing with average is like speaking a different kind of english for us both. If I were NT with a high IQ that would be awesome but... A few of my friends, don't even talk to me anymore. I've let go.
I need to keep an extreme organizer (I plan my days out weekly and keep an un-dated planner) I HAVE TO. Also with hygiene. I can't be dirty, I just can't. I have given myself instructions for a hygiene ritual. I think a lot of people could probably benefit from LOL. I also plan my gym visits and I am highly aware of what's in my food.
Looking deeply into your eyes... CREEPS ME OUT! I've always been uncomfortable with eye contact. I don't think that will be anything I can do anything about. It's hard to look in my boyfriends eyes for instance. On contrary, I enjoy looking at my daughter because she's so cute and her cute little eyes are beautiful.
Other things I am weak against: Bright or strange lights (my house has xmas lights decorated inside so I can switch the mood/or colors, and I feel odd having the dining room light on. Loud sounds, and I really can't do smells. I stay away from menstraiting females (I can tell) and limit my public appearances. Sense of smell is why I constantly have to be clean. I smell myself, when no one else would otherwise be able to.
All these things combined, I can't work due to these things being so largely disabling for me. So I am a genius on SSI. I feel like I've been robbed. All while appearing "NORMAL" to those who misunderstand autism. I haven't really gotten too much negativity about it. When I explain it to others, it seems to make sense to them. "Oh yeah I guess you are autistic!" I am lucky for that. But still, I wish I could be doing more with myself and I feel like my brain is waisted. So I play games and teach my (proving to be NT) daughter all kinds of useful things. I am planning to take early childhood education for homeschooling. She's only 2 years old currently after all.
I'd love to also speak with some other Aspie parents if you're here. I just need support and I offer some in exchange or for freely. There isn't a lot of resources online that I've been able to find for parents with this issue. Mainly the other way around.
Thank you for your time.
