Katastrophic24
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New to the site, trying to understand current situation, thought I would risk a post.
Originally investigated Aspergers as believed my other half was exhibiting traits, he is currently very into existentialism but do not believe after reading up on Aspergers that this is a trait, we are both what could be considered socially “interesting” individuals. After investing in a counsellor because I was struggling and family suggested this may be of help, the Counsellor suggested that I had a strong insight and maybe my other half was Aspergers and the relationship would benefit from further investigation.
Further investigation online has shown that my other half exists well with in the ratios of normal and I test off the scale for Aspergers, ADD and OCD.
I know I am something and a high functioning something and have only considered recently that a diagnosis may actually help but have little faith in medical profession after being “studied” as a child and as the family joke goes “they thought she may have sight or hearing deficiencies, turns out she was just ignorant”.
I have an amazing back catalogue of learned responses to every day situations and walk away from every counselling session with a gold star for appropriate response, after all, all quizzes have already determined responses. I think this may be where I am going wrong!
Despite my responses I am constantly confused, I have some major auditory issues, I struggle with the fall out from not giving the correct response to an emotional question and find running on Adrenalin and alcohol far easier than living a calm life. I alternate between complete contentment and extreme stress on a daily if not hourly basis depending on my daily communications with others and quite frankly I am exhausted. My issues with my other half may be a lack of my ability to comprehend or appreciate his view, this is scary after finding someone who previously accepted my oddities, now I find him Alien.
I’m now approaching 40 and want to run away, I’m not sure what more to say or what to post.
Kx
Originally investigated Aspergers as believed my other half was exhibiting traits, he is currently very into existentialism but do not believe after reading up on Aspergers that this is a trait, we are both what could be considered socially “interesting” individuals. After investing in a counsellor because I was struggling and family suggested this may be of help, the Counsellor suggested that I had a strong insight and maybe my other half was Aspergers and the relationship would benefit from further investigation.
Further investigation online has shown that my other half exists well with in the ratios of normal and I test off the scale for Aspergers, ADD and OCD.
I know I am something and a high functioning something and have only considered recently that a diagnosis may actually help but have little faith in medical profession after being “studied” as a child and as the family joke goes “they thought she may have sight or hearing deficiencies, turns out she was just ignorant”.
I have an amazing back catalogue of learned responses to every day situations and walk away from every counselling session with a gold star for appropriate response, after all, all quizzes have already determined responses. I think this may be where I am going wrong!
Despite my responses I am constantly confused, I have some major auditory issues, I struggle with the fall out from not giving the correct response to an emotional question and find running on Adrenalin and alcohol far easier than living a calm life. I alternate between complete contentment and extreme stress on a daily if not hourly basis depending on my daily communications with others and quite frankly I am exhausted. My issues with my other half may be a lack of my ability to comprehend or appreciate his view, this is scary after finding someone who previously accepted my oddities, now I find him Alien.
I’m now approaching 40 and want to run away, I’m not sure what more to say or what to post.
Kx
