GhostWriter
Active Member
Let's try this again- last time my whole autobiography went to Signature!! Very frustrating at 67 yes old, in Crisis & with Aspergers!!
So okay, I'm 67 & a childless married woman who just might be losing it ALL!
After 43 yes of marriage, my husband almost left me last night. The stress associated with his knee replacement surgery & dealing with a bullying sister in law has tipped me over the edge.
I am the oldest of 3 children whose father had his own issues, mainly an alcoholic father who became an overbearing perfectionist when he married after returning from WWII, & a big personal disappointment in the jod area. Mom was consequently very passive, but having been raised in an orphanage she didn't have much knowledge about mothering. We kids always felt like poor immigrant Outsiders, lower Slobobians compared to our more affluent neighborhood peers. I was the oldest, so I guess I got the brunt of.it all... I was very insecure & shy & felt like the Oddball, with no friends, etc. I clearly recall several instances throughout childhood that probably made other kids think I was weird, someone to stay away from. I can understand that now, but then it was just very hurtful. Examples being: sending valentines cards to fellow 4th graders with critical comments inside, art school friends who held a 'Confrontation/ Intervention' session with me in an attempt to straighten me out & various 'inappropriate reactions' on my part throughout my past. But in most of those instances I had no idea I had done or said anything wrong. Regardless, I was accused of being Rude, self centered & uncaring.
So here I am, signed up with AspiesCentral after being Astonished by the symptoms mentioned in diagnostic articles on the subject that really matched my OWN behavior!!
My husband & all but 1 sister are skeptical so far. I really need some support after 1 serious attempt to OD... I'd be thankful for any insights you'd like to share...
So okay, I'm 67 & a childless married woman who just might be losing it ALL!
After 43 yes of marriage, my husband almost left me last night. The stress associated with his knee replacement surgery & dealing with a bullying sister in law has tipped me over the edge.
I am the oldest of 3 children whose father had his own issues, mainly an alcoholic father who became an overbearing perfectionist when he married after returning from WWII, & a big personal disappointment in the jod area. Mom was consequently very passive, but having been raised in an orphanage she didn't have much knowledge about mothering. We kids always felt like poor immigrant Outsiders, lower Slobobians compared to our more affluent neighborhood peers. I was the oldest, so I guess I got the brunt of.it all... I was very insecure & shy & felt like the Oddball, with no friends, etc. I clearly recall several instances throughout childhood that probably made other kids think I was weird, someone to stay away from. I can understand that now, but then it was just very hurtful. Examples being: sending valentines cards to fellow 4th graders with critical comments inside, art school friends who held a 'Confrontation/ Intervention' session with me in an attempt to straighten me out & various 'inappropriate reactions' on my part throughout my past. But in most of those instances I had no idea I had done or said anything wrong. Regardless, I was accused of being Rude, self centered & uncaring.
So here I am, signed up with AspiesCentral after being Astonished by the symptoms mentioned in diagnostic articles on the subject that really matched my OWN behavior!!
My husband & all but 1 sister are skeptical so far. I really need some support after 1 serious attempt to OD... I'd be thankful for any insights you'd like to share...
