I hate that my friends know how to handle a meltdown. I hate that my friends have all seen sensory overloads. I hate that my friends know where not to invite me, and I hate that I decide whether to go or not based on How likely I think I am do not need accommodated. I wish I could just not have sensory overloads and meltdowns. I wish I could just not stim. I gave myself a concussion during a Meltdown last week. It's gotten better since I was a kid, but I don't like where it's at now.