I have a problem. I feel ill a lot of the time. And sometimes I have so many aches and I just feel so weak and somewhat nauseous, that it's hard to find the motivation to get out of bed and do productive things. Sometimes I hurt myself, or fall down, and when that happens, I'm laid up for a week or more.
I really want to work hard. And I feel like a failure. I'm a lot better than I was, but it's been years of slowly recovering and getting strength back.
This time, last year, I was in bed 24/7 and sometimes needed help dressing myself, or standing. I'm doing so much better now. I can cook and clean, especially if I am using a walker or wheelchair. I can walk and lift things, and I speak a lot more and with quicker pace. I laugh and joke a lot too, where not so long ago, I was out of breath and could hardly whisper a full sentence.
It is a miracle, borne of love and encouragement.
But still, there'll be weeks where I do very little, because of the overwhelming ill feeling.
It's also affecting my muscle tone and appearance very much so. I need to work in order to keep my body healthy. There is a gym in my apartments now, and I've had some good workouts in there, but I have to feel well enough to go down and use it.
Getting really caffeinated works. I become a superhero then, but that's also when I overdo it, and hurt myself. Essiac herbal tea helps too. But it tastes so nasty, it's hard to drink it every day.
If you live with an illness that is debilitating, how do you push past the dizziness, nausea, or other weak feelings to get things done in your life? Is there a trick to being more resilient?
I really want to work hard. And I feel like a failure. I'm a lot better than I was, but it's been years of slowly recovering and getting strength back.
This time, last year, I was in bed 24/7 and sometimes needed help dressing myself, or standing. I'm doing so much better now. I can cook and clean, especially if I am using a walker or wheelchair. I can walk and lift things, and I speak a lot more and with quicker pace. I laugh and joke a lot too, where not so long ago, I was out of breath and could hardly whisper a full sentence.
It is a miracle, borne of love and encouragement.
But still, there'll be weeks where I do very little, because of the overwhelming ill feeling.
It's also affecting my muscle tone and appearance very much so. I need to work in order to keep my body healthy. There is a gym in my apartments now, and I've had some good workouts in there, but I have to feel well enough to go down and use it.
Getting really caffeinated works. I become a superhero then, but that's also when I overdo it, and hurt myself. Essiac herbal tea helps too. But it tastes so nasty, it's hard to drink it every day.
If you live with an illness that is debilitating, how do you push past the dizziness, nausea, or other weak feelings to get things done in your life? Is there a trick to being more resilient?
