My emotional struggle portrayed by a certain song

[UberScout]

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I keep dreaming,
And dark scheming,
Yeah I do...
Feel like poison
And i know that
It's the truth
Used to think that I, was vicious
And they say I'm, suspicious

I keep dreaming
And dark scheming
Yes i do



You ever felt like there was an evil version of yourself living inside you?

 

[Gerald Wilgus]

You ever felt like there was an evil version of yourself living inside you?

Nope. I only felt that there was a defective and damaged person living inside until I did the work to like myself.

 

[Wolfnox]

Hence the wolf part of my name.

Yes there is an evil side of me. Cold, emotionless, dangerous, cares nothing for others, and enjoys the darkest depravity you can imagine. With a burning hatred.
But, Uberscout. He is a choice. I choose not to be him.

Instead I am a Wolfy Smurf. A protector who values life and is learning kindness from others. My friend helped me in this.

 

[Luca]

I don’t think I’m capable of evil, period. I feel miserable and ruminate about it for the next two weeks if I raise my voice at my dogs and they show any type of anxiety response.

 

[Gerald Wilgus]

I don’t think I’m capable of evil, period. I feel miserable and ruminate about it for the next two weeks if I raise my voice at my dogs and they show any type of anxiety response.

Interesting how our pets keep us centered. Watching Sunday Morning with a cat on my lap is very calming. With cats, one needs to earn their respect, yet they also enjoy their routines.

 

[Darkkin]

I feel a flood of guilt if I even step on my cat's paw. Can I get frustrated with my dogs, yes, especially when Zwi thinks he doesn't need to get of the back step in the cold. We have a compromise in place wherein he can come in warm up his toes and get a drink, but he goes right back out until he does his business. I can be stubborn, but never consciously cruel.

I watch a lot of true crime shows (fasicination with forensic psychology), but sociopaths and psychopaths are completely beyond my realm of comprehension. (I always ask why would someone do that? It is mind boggling.) As much as it can be uncomfortable to have my emotions swamp me, I'm profoundly glad I have them and understand them. If I didn't I think I would be very leary of myself.

 

[Equals Tuesday]

My dog and I share a lot in common. We're both nervy beings who are easily startled and cry a lot. She's my home girl.

I recently discovered an artist called Cosmo Sheldrake. I haven't heard a song by him yet that I don't relate to. I feel like I have one foot in reality and one foot in my own fantasy world. So, to answer your question, I suppose there is an evil version of me somewhere inside the deep, dark woods of my head, but I don't think they even remotely look like me. Most of my characters don't. I haven't met a mirror in that world yet.