my endgoal

[jane_doe]

my end-goal is to walk into a completely dark, totally safe room with no noise, no smells, completely pure dustless air. i then would like to lie down flat on my back limbs spread like a starfish. after lying down on the cold hard textureless floor i would then like to cease existing for eternity. it just sounds relaxing.

 

[Tom]

 

[Rodafina]

@jane_doe
We are all ever marching toward the end of life and it is understandable to desire peace and freedom from hardship. People here have encouraged me to give life a chance until that end comes and continue to seek peace and freedom from a hurtful existence by being alive and remembering our time on Earth is finite.

Sometimes, it is the simplest thing. Indulging in special interests, learning everything there is to learn about the mysteries of the world. Taking chances on people, because sometimes a surprise connection can be built. Enjoying the tiniest happy details of life as they arise, and helping others who have felt great burdens. This relaxed state that you have described may be able to exist while you are still alive. Perhaps you can find this peace in life while you are here on Earth.

 

[Richelle-H]

I fully understand your need. Back in my younger days in Los Angeles, there was a bit of a fad that sprang up and a business opened that offered time in a sensory deprivation tank. What it was was a large step in boxy thing with a door that shut out all light and the room was sound proofed. You would enter, strip naked, shower, insert a pair of ear plugs, then step into the tank, close the door, and lie down. There was about ten inches or so of water that had a very large amount of Epsom salts dissolved in it. This created a buoyancy that allowed your body to float once you stretched out.

The water was kept at body temperature. So as long as you did not move, it felt like you were weightless and floating in total darkness. The usual session was an hour, but they had an after hours thing were you could do 4 hours. I did many sessions of an hour but that led to trying a 4 hour session. The sensory hallucinations were quite interesting.

I have also experienced complete oblivion on more than one occasion. I am not talking sleep here. In one instance I was sure I was dying; but for the work of two pulmonary specialists working on me for some thirteen hours, I would not be sitting here typing this.

I just want to say that from my point of view. oblivion is not all that it is cracked up to be especially when you come back from it. Turning the switch to the off position and then flipping it back up after varying lengths of time is very disorienting. I think I much prefer the time I spent in sensory deprivation tanks.

I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Knower of nothing]

I completely feel this. My love for space and the moon is directly related to it.

 

[Vindiesel]

You wouldnt want to enter a noiseless room for too long. Your not taking in account in a noiseless room you will hear your heartbeat and bodily functions at their core and you will fixate on the noise. Which will drive up your anxiety quickly.

 

[tree]

my end-goal is to walk into a completely dark, totally safe room with no noise, no smells, completely pure dustless air. i then would like to lie down flat on my back limbs spread like a starfish. after lying down on the cold hard textureless floor i would then like to cease existing for eternity. it just sounds relaxing.

So you're saying that what you experience now is pretty much the opposite?

Too many smells, too much noise, obnoxious sights & textures?

And the result of so much input is that you often feel agitated or anxious?
And long for peace?

 

[Bolletje]

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I love that movie.

 

[Wolfnox]

Called a bed. With windows shut. The silence is beautiful. I prefer a grassy field.

 

[Tom]

I love that movie.

I remember when the original card series came out. It kinda blew our little pre-school minds. The first edition contained about 10 cards so bad they were immediately pulled and replaced. The whole series was pulled by public/government action about a year later.

So yeah, the film is very nostalgic to me and has a special place in my heart too.