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[Moviefan2k4]

Hey, all. Its been quite a while since I was a regular around here. I didn't see a way to search for specific threads of my own, so forgive me if this has been previously posted. I'm just very frustrated, and looking for answers.

First, you should all know that I am a Christian. I don't resort to legalism, but I refuse to back down when challenged as well. I mention this because it relates very strongly, to my romantic history so far.

While I had some crushes in my grade-school days, none of them ever reciprocated my feelings. But in 2001, I met an amazing woman who's still very special to me. Even though its been sixteen years, and we've barely spoken for 11 of those years...I still feel a very powerful pull toward her, that I can't always explain to others' satisfaction. It encompasses far more than "warm and fuzzy" feelings, or the erotic side either. For lack of better words, its like a binding of souls. There's been very few days in the past 16 years of my life, that I haven't thought of and/or missed her a great deal...and its only escalated since my Mom passed in March of 2015. I truly feel like this woman is the missing piece of my heart, but I haven't been able to contact her. I tried Facebook; no replies so far. I also tried finding her phone number; no results on that either. I'm just desperate for peace, because an indifferent silence has lasted way too long. People keep telling me to let her go, but hearing that just rubs me the wrong way. I feel stuck, and I'm looking for helpful advice.

 

[Streetwise]

Have you prayed for instruction on what to do
being very autistic i just ask for pictures and then i know
I've once had an open vision i think you get that when it will change what happens in a huge way

 

[tree]

@Moviefan2k4

"I didn't see a way to search for specific threads of my own..."

Are you asking how to find threads that you started in the past?
And posts you have made?
If so, you could locate any of them by clicking on Postings on your
Profile page.

 

[Moviefan2k4]

Have you prayed for instruction on what to do
being very autistic i just ask for pictures and then i know
I've once had an open vision i think you get that when it will change what happens in a huge way

I pray almost every day, and have been about this for a while. But receiving answers has always been tough for me, since I often struggle deciphering God's voice from my own thoughts or feelings.

 

[Streetwise]

Same here, its got harder as IVE got more stressed
but if i wait long enough i sometimes get something
Do you own the picture bible i find if i look at the pictures the ruach ha kodesh (holy spirit) English words are harder for me than Hebrew ))IM not Israeli
since i was annointed by ruach ha kodesh Hebrew means mor

 

[Streetwise]

Same here, its got harder as IVE got more stressed
but if i wait long enough i sometimes get something
Do you own the picture bible i find if i look at the pictures the ruach ha kodesh (holy spirit) English words are harder for me than Hebrew ))IM not Israeli
since i was annointed by ruach ha kodesh Hebrew means mor

Continued- more ,i get a memory from the picture and then i know what ha shem(G~d ) said
its still very hard knowing if its right but i keep discerning until i cant get any more
the author of the picture bible do you have counselling at your church if so they could pray that you receive discernment

 

[Streetwise]

sorry my memory is bizarre
its said the script of the picture bible is by iva hoth and illustrations by andre le blanc
published by chariot

 

[Bella Pines]

I have a similar thing with an ex boyfriend from 1995.

However. Aspie traits include monologue and story telling. The man from 1995 no longer exists except in my head. And in my head, this character is fully formed and very real.

This is why I am now studying to become an author.

However, try to recognize the differences between your version of reality, which is real to you, and other people's realities, which is real to them. And situations where the 2 versions of reality might not match...