hi,
self-dx'd aspie, and also starting the official dx process because i'm almost finished an MBA program and i'm tired of losing jobs due to poor social skills and communication problems.
my immediate family knows i'm an aspie (it's kind of obvious that i'm "different" to anyone who spends time with me), my extended family has just used it as an excuse to treat me like trash for most of my life. useful when they want something from me, tossed aside or a verbal punching bag when they are angry at life. except i can't tell the difference on when i am being used -- when are people sincere or not? when people are friendly and kind, i think maybe things are finally okay and we've sorted things. when they are angry or shut me out of their lives, then i think i did something wrong or they are hurting and need help. i can't seem to understand the difference or figure out human behavior, but i always get hurt in the process. "Nerdy, Shy, and Socially Inappropriate" has been helping me a lot in understanding myself and starting to navigate the NT world even at this late stage .....
my only solution has been to shut most people out and stay to myself, and just my animals (my cats and dog are always fine with me). i like computers (all tech), religions (all of them, but I'm a BuJew), languages, sciences, medicines (i'm a health services major), researching, patterns, numbers, and trying to understand how things work.
storm
self-dx'd aspie, and also starting the official dx process because i'm almost finished an MBA program and i'm tired of losing jobs due to poor social skills and communication problems.
my immediate family knows i'm an aspie (it's kind of obvious that i'm "different" to anyone who spends time with me), my extended family has just used it as an excuse to treat me like trash for most of my life. useful when they want something from me, tossed aside or a verbal punching bag when they are angry at life. except i can't tell the difference on when i am being used -- when are people sincere or not? when people are friendly and kind, i think maybe things are finally okay and we've sorted things. when they are angry or shut me out of their lives, then i think i did something wrong or they are hurting and need help. i can't seem to understand the difference or figure out human behavior, but i always get hurt in the process. "Nerdy, Shy, and Socially Inappropriate" has been helping me a lot in understanding myself and starting to navigate the NT world even at this late stage .....
my only solution has been to shut most people out and stay to myself, and just my animals (my cats and dog are always fine with me). i like computers (all tech), religions (all of them, but I'm a BuJew), languages, sciences, medicines (i'm a health services major), researching, patterns, numbers, and trying to understand how things work.
storm
