curiouslycurious
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Hello all,
I would really appreciate some insight on whether you think I have aspergers or not. I am a 28 year old female. I have reached out to a university that will evaluate me for free if I agree to participate in future autism spectrum disorder research studies. However, I guess I am just scared to receive a new label or possibly not, I really don't want to go through with the evaluation unless I am 100% sure I have it. I would love to hear your feedback. I apologize in advance for my lengthy list.
Reason why I think I have Aspergers:
Reasons why I might not have it:
I would really appreciate some insight on whether you think I have aspergers or not. I am a 28 year old female. I have reached out to a university that will evaluate me for free if I agree to participate in future autism spectrum disorder research studies. However, I guess I am just scared to receive a new label or possibly not, I really don't want to go through with the evaluation unless I am 100% sure I have it. I would love to hear your feedback. I apologize in advance for my lengthy list.
Reason why I think I have Aspergers:
- Have trouble keeping a conversation going.
- Don't have any friends, just acquaintances. My husband is my best friend. He has his own circle of friends, which the only time I will "go out" is if I tag along. However, now that I have 2 children I am just content to stay at home. I am definitely a homebody.
- Have isolated myself from having friends unintentionally.
- I went to college after high school thinking that my social life would improve. I usually would talk to a few people who sat near me in my classes, but I never really developed those long lasting friendships that it seems other people always do.
- Have trouble keep connections with people. Especially when life goes in different directions.
- Hate talking on the phone, will script what I have to say ahead of time.
- Don't know what to do with my hands when I am talking to somebody. Most of the time they will end up in my pocket as I stand there awkwardly.
- I never know how to end a conversation properly, so I will just leave maybe not at the most appropriate time or not say the right thing.
- In group settings, I am the one who never talks. Considered very shy and quiet as a child.
- Have trouble looking at people in the eyes. I have learned over the years that this is expected, so this is not so much an issue. I do find myself thinking okay you have been looking at his eyes too long, look away, okay now look back. Is this what everyone does?
- Have trouble looking into my husband's eyes when we are really close, especially while having sex.
- Don't like to kiss affectionately, always on the receiving end of of a kiss.
- Would not have sex if my husband would allow it, no desire at all. I love my husband, he understands me, I think that I just don't like to be touched.
- Tense up when someone tries to hug me.
- Like my personal space.
- Musically and artistically talented, from a young age. Taught myself to play piano and draw. Learned to play guitar, flute, and the trumpet.
- Love the composer Yanni. Will play his piano music over and over again. It reminds me of my childhood, listening to my sister play the piano. Growing up, whenever I was stressed or angry or even sad, I would retreat to the piano to express how I was feeling.
- I keep things bottled up, probably battled depression on and off. Never sought treatment though. I recall having suicidal thoughts, but knew I would never act on those thoughts, I was just extremely unhappy as a teenager. Probably why I drank when I was younger and it helped to relax me in social situations.
- Very disorganized, but then I will go into manic cleaning mode and organizing mode, screaming and yelling about why is the place such a mess, I can't stand it, blah, blah, blah. It drives my husband crazy. However, everything goes back to mess eventually, repeating the vicious cycle.
- I hate when people say etc. As if I am supposed to read their minds. Like if my boss gives me instructions, she will often list several things I need to do but will then say and etc. I don't know if I am missing something somewhere.
- Eat the same foods for breakfast and lunch everyday. I eat whatever my husband fixes for dinner.
- Have trouble focusing, but I am sure that it is tied to ADD (undiagnosed).
- I am tied to my routines. I like to know ahead of time if I am going to have to go somewhere on the weekend and kind of prep myself internally for that. However, my job involves having to adjust my schedule frequently so I do okay with change, I don't have a meltdown or anything because of it.
- I noticed the other day while talking on the phone trying to explain something to a client that I was waving my hands wildly around, gesturing. Any onlookers probably thought I was crazy. May not be relevant, but I thought it was interesting. Apparently, I do this often but do not hand gesture when talking face to face with people.
- I am sensitive to loud sounds, only want the TV to be on low volume. Hate overhearing people's conversations at work, so I will listen to music instead. Have to sleep with ear plugs in.
- Prefer to wear comfy clothes. I cut my hair so it requires little styling, I only wear makeup on special occasions. Most times I don't bother. I am not a girly girl by any means.
- I scored a 39 on the AQ quiz.
Reasons why I might not have it:
- I scored well on the quiz that tests your ability to read eyes. I feel like this is something that you could intellectually learn though as you get older.
- I do not have a stim or repetitive movement that I do.
- Most people would think I come across as normal.
