So it looks like I will be going in a new direction career wise. If everything materializes as expected, I will be working part time at a job year round and then working a second job during the busy part of the year for 3 months. So I'll be working part time 9 months of the year, but then well over 40 hour weeks during the other 3 months. I currently work 40 hours per week year round, except for 3 months of the year when I work well over 40 for our busy season. But I've felt burnt out for a while now and my life seemed to be rather pointless.
I feel some unease with making the move as there is some risk to making a change. I also worry too much of what other people will think of me in that I'm only going to work part time a majority of the year. I am a little uneasy myself since I'm not sure what I'm going to do with all the extra time. I guess it is in the uncertainty that makes me feel nervous. But I should feel more excited I feel. I am excited, but negative thoughts always seem to take over regardless of the situation I find myself in life. Financially I'll be making slightly less, but I've saved a lot over the last 7 years, and I still should make enough to live well within my means. I guess I need to be confident in myself and worry less about what others think. Change is really hard and I like routines so that is part of the challenge I will have fight through. I'm not sure what the point is of this post other than to write my thoughts out.
I feel like I've missed out on so many things from my teenage years to the present young adult years. I know that I can never get back the missed opportunities and experiences from those years. There is a lot of pain there that I've numbed myself from but need to release so that I can heal. Maybe this opportunity is a way for me to make up for some lost time. My biggest fear is wasting my whole life. This is an opportunity to escape the rat race to a certain extent. But I know it will be far from a cure all and in itself will not lead to happiness and fulfillment.
I feel some unease with making the move as there is some risk to making a change. I also worry too much of what other people will think of me in that I'm only going to work part time a majority of the year. I am a little uneasy myself since I'm not sure what I'm going to do with all the extra time. I guess it is in the uncertainty that makes me feel nervous. But I should feel more excited I feel. I am excited, but negative thoughts always seem to take over regardless of the situation I find myself in life. Financially I'll be making slightly less, but I've saved a lot over the last 7 years, and I still should make enough to live well within my means. I guess I need to be confident in myself and worry less about what others think. Change is really hard and I like routines so that is part of the challenge I will have fight through. I'm not sure what the point is of this post other than to write my thoughts out.
I feel like I've missed out on so many things from my teenage years to the present young adult years. I know that I can never get back the missed opportunities and experiences from those years. There is a lot of pain there that I've numbed myself from but need to release so that I can heal. Maybe this opportunity is a way for me to make up for some lost time. My biggest fear is wasting my whole life. This is an opportunity to escape the rat race to a certain extent. But I know it will be far from a cure all and in itself will not lead to happiness and fulfillment.
