I have no diagnosis of anything and rather don't want one.
I'm actually just looking for friends, I always have been, but I've not quite mastered (or been able to frequently/repeatedly endure) the whole social interaction thing. When I talk most people tend to go silent. I'm never sure if I'm being incomprehensible or if they are simply unfamiliar with the subject. I do have some unusual interests for a 35 year old female and absolutely no normal ones so that could be part of the problem. My brother recently told me that growing up he always thought that I was intentionally speaking over other people's heads.
I was kicked out of preschool, aced elementary school in the gifted curriculum, would have been expelled in junior high but my IQ scores were so high they gave me a calculator instead, did get kicked out of high school after six years of failing everything except math and business law (I don't blame them), got a GED, then later dropped out of college because the school didn't offer a degree in anthropology and I'd completed all similar coursework they did offer. Since then I've wandered from job to job, the only ones I excelled at were washing dishes and busing tables. I've often found myself in homeless situations and other inopportune circumstances. (It seems you can't use logic to predict situations where others are involved. But if you can't use logic, I don't know what you can use.) I, fortunately, have two friends who've repeatedly saved me from those situations.
I habitually collect and organize information (I've compiled "books' for myself researching coffee, local histories of select cities, music history and music theory history, common knowledge of pioneers and settlers that have been lost since, the evolution of electrical systems, etc.) but I am happiest when creating new systems of doing things. Just last week I spent 18 hours working out a fun new way to do complex subtractions more easily but presently it's incomplete as I became distracted with another concept namely rate of perception in relation to age and brain portion yet developed or atrophying. Usually, I eventually complete such tasks. I love generating new invention ideas, I have a collection of those too.
I didn't have any friends until I was 18 and fell into a group of "rogue" professors. By rogue, I mean free thinking. They were the first people to actually understand anything I was talking about, my first indication I wasn't babbling insane, and many hours were happily spent discussing concepts I had no business even thinking about given my academic record. Over time they've all drifted away.
I also lack shared interest with most people I meet. I can't stand to watch most tv shows or movies because the dramatic lighting and especially the music tends to make me panic. I have zero ability to pay attention to anything fictional (barring mythology) so I can't relate to the smart people I have met and their world of gaming, comics, and science fiction. Aside from playing instruments, I can't focus on two things at once or multitask. I rely on scripts for interacting with people at work but end up confounded if they deviate from the norm unless they start talking about something such as Fibonnaci numbers or black hole horizon events.
I'm actually just looking for friends, I always have been, but I've not quite mastered (or been able to frequently/repeatedly endure) the whole social interaction thing. When I talk most people tend to go silent. I'm never sure if I'm being incomprehensible or if they are simply unfamiliar with the subject. I do have some unusual interests for a 35 year old female and absolutely no normal ones so that could be part of the problem. My brother recently told me that growing up he always thought that I was intentionally speaking over other people's heads.
I was kicked out of preschool, aced elementary school in the gifted curriculum, would have been expelled in junior high but my IQ scores were so high they gave me a calculator instead, did get kicked out of high school after six years of failing everything except math and business law (I don't blame them), got a GED, then later dropped out of college because the school didn't offer a degree in anthropology and I'd completed all similar coursework they did offer. Since then I've wandered from job to job, the only ones I excelled at were washing dishes and busing tables. I've often found myself in homeless situations and other inopportune circumstances. (It seems you can't use logic to predict situations where others are involved. But if you can't use logic, I don't know what you can use.) I, fortunately, have two friends who've repeatedly saved me from those situations.
I habitually collect and organize information (I've compiled "books' for myself researching coffee, local histories of select cities, music history and music theory history, common knowledge of pioneers and settlers that have been lost since, the evolution of electrical systems, etc.) but I am happiest when creating new systems of doing things. Just last week I spent 18 hours working out a fun new way to do complex subtractions more easily but presently it's incomplete as I became distracted with another concept namely rate of perception in relation to age and brain portion yet developed or atrophying. Usually, I eventually complete such tasks. I love generating new invention ideas, I have a collection of those too.
I didn't have any friends until I was 18 and fell into a group of "rogue" professors. By rogue, I mean free thinking. They were the first people to actually understand anything I was talking about, my first indication I wasn't babbling insane, and many hours were happily spent discussing concepts I had no business even thinking about given my academic record. Over time they've all drifted away.
I also lack shared interest with most people I meet. I can't stand to watch most tv shows or movies because the dramatic lighting and especially the music tends to make me panic. I have zero ability to pay attention to anything fictional (barring mythology) so I can't relate to the smart people I have met and their world of gaming, comics, and science fiction. Aside from playing instruments, I can't focus on two things at once or multitask. I rely on scripts for interacting with people at work but end up confounded if they deviate from the norm unless they start talking about something such as Fibonnaci numbers or black hole horizon events.