NT Depression. (A spinoff from NT Loneliness) (Another heavy sigh)

[Grumpy Cat]

Grumpy Cat here. We are having fantastic weather here in Kansas and I thought that my decreased energy and mood was secondary to SAD. However, I'm still tired all of the time and sleeping more than usual (about to take another nap cause I just can't seem to keep my eyes open). I'm wondering if it is not due to the new job and the class I'm taking now.

Something happened at work this past week with a co-worker with my same name (Angie) and I'm actually dreading having to go to work tomorrow and running into her (she works every weekend like me). I keep getting calls to work extra and right now I really don't have the time to work extra, but I'm feeling guilty by not doing so.

I hate this class I'm taking. Absolutely hate it. It's actually a full time job to do this class. Spring break is this next week, but we have a term paper with articles we have had discussions over and that stupid game of Diplomacy we have been "playing". We have to tie the game together with what we have discussed in the articles and the book. The paper is worth a considerable amount of points and what needs to be done is not really clear to me and what is more important I don't care. I have no interest in this subject. I have no doubt that I will come up with something, I always do, but I would rather just go to bed and not think about it. We also have another big test the same week the paper is due. The tests are hard in themselves. I have no energy and I just want to go back to sleep. I started retaking my vitamins in case it could be that. I wish I could just forget this damn class and do fun things like knitting. Do you guys get this, or just me - Miss NT?

 

[Warmheart]

You are not alone, Angie! How frustrating to need to get through this class, then also feel bothered by the work mess with your colleague, and on top of it all, to feel really blah. It's hard enough without one's body feeling draggy and sluggish during a busy time. I am sending you warm, caring, positive thoughts to help get you through this. ((((Hug))))

 

[Grumpy Cat]

You are not alone, Angie! How frustrating to need to get through this class, then also feel bothered by the work mess with your colleague, and on top of it all, to feel really blah. It's hard enough without one's body feeling draggy and sluggish during a busy time. I am sending you warm, caring, positive thoughts to help get you through this. ((((Hug))))

Thanks, Warmheart. I took a nap. I've been having a lot of nightmares this morning and today too, and I don't usually dream much. Anyway, when I woke up I cleaned some. I think I'll feel a little better after I get my place cleaned up. The winter really drags me down. I'm very thankful for the weather we are having. I think it bothers me that this class takes up too much time - time I'd like to spend spring cleaning and maybe even working a little extra. I usually don't stay in a funk for too long.

 

[Spiller]

How long does your course last Angie? There's an end to it in sight, at least.. Those nightmares sound like you're really stressed about this whole situation.
You're certainly not alone in feeling low, you're in good company here with people who've had plenty of practice
It's good that you know this funk won't last, it's always helpful to be aware that a downturn in your mood is only temporary and it seems to me that you know how to help yourself out of it. You strike me as a fighter and a survivor.
I used to have regular periods of depression that I found meditation and exercise could alleviate.. unfortunately for me they've become so frequent they've run into one continous state that never ends now and just gets steadily worse. Being able to vent a little here, I've found, is a new way to help a little - I've never had anyone to share my stuff with before.. I know you don't socialise much, but maybe you just need to go out once in a while and have a laugh with people; I know it brightens me up greatly when I get to spend time with someone.
I can't wait for some good, warm sunshine myself, it's still spotty in the UK at the moment, then I can get outside and soak up some rays to blow the winters chill out of my bones

 

[Grumpy Cat]

How long does your course last Angie? There's an end to it in sight, at least.. Those nightmares sound like you're really stressed about this whole situation.
You're certainly not alone in feeling low, you're in good company here with people who've had plenty of practice
It's good that you know this funk won't last, it's always helpful to be aware that a downturn in your mood is only temporary and it seems to me that you know how to help yourself out of it. You strike me as a fighter and a survivor.
I used to have regular periods of depression that I found meditation and exercise could alleviate.. unfortunately for me they've become so frequent they've run into one continous state that never ends now and just gets steadily worse. Being able to vent a little here, I've found, is a new way to help a little - I've never had anyone to share my stuff with before.. I know you don't socialise much, but maybe you just need to go out once in a while and have a laugh with people; I know it brightens me up greatly when I get to spend time with someone.
I can't wait for some good, warm sunshine myself, it's still spotty in the UK at the moment, then I can get outside and soak up some rays to blow the winters chill out of my bones

Spiller, I don't quite understand it. I still want to do my fun activities so I haven't lost interests in those. I'm thinking its because I don't want to face what's going on at work (cause I thought I was getting along with everyone well and now I'm not - I told Mary what's going on and she said to stay away from her) and I don't want to face what has to be done in that class - I'd rather hide from it and sleep helps that.

One of those nightmares I was going to die in. I still remember it like I just had the dream - I was in a truck of some sort with a "man" driving but I never saw him. We were driving up the side of this mountain and it was darker outside but not totally night - you could still see. There was this fence on the outer part of the mountain so cars wouldn't go over the edge and I could see we had our truck's headlights on. We would turn these corners slow and were only going maybe 25mph. Then I saw a place where part of the fence was gone for some reason and when we came close to it, this "man" next to me turned the steering wheel in that direction of where the fence was missing and then slowly grabbed me and held my arms so I couldn't grab the steering wheel and we went over the side. That's when I started screaming and woke up. Whoever this "man" was wasn't scared about dying at all. I keep thinking of who that could have been.

 

[Harrison]

- I was in a truck of some sort with a "man" driving... Whoever this "man" was wasn't scared about dying at all. I keep thinking of who that could have been.

Sorry, couldn't resist

That's a powerful dream there, and a protective one too. I'd be happy to have such a dream to be honest.

 

[Grumpy Cat]

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Sorry, couldn't resist

That's a powerful dream there, and a protective one too. I'd be happy to have such a dream to be honest.

Is that a real picture of you Mr. Taurus?

Why would you want a dream like that? It still scares me just thinking about it. Who do you think "he" was if it was a protective dream? How could it be protective if it was his intention that we would go over the side of the mountain?

 

[Harrison]

I'll send you a pm

 

[Spiller]

Spiller, I don't quite understand it. I still want to do my fun activities so I haven't lost interests in those. I'm thinking its because I don't want to face what's going on at work (cause I thought I was getting along with everyone well and now I'm not - I told Mary what's going on and she said to stay away from her) and I don't want to face what has to be done in that class - I'd rather hide from it and sleep helps that.

One of those nightmares I was going to die in. I still remember it like I just had the dream - I was in a truck of some sort with a "man" driving but I never saw him. We were driving up the side of this mountain and it was darker outside but not totally night - you could still see. There was this fence on the outer part of the mountain so cars wouldn't go over the edge and I could see we had our truck's headlights on. We would turn these corners slow and were only going maybe 25mph. Then I saw a place where part of the fence was gone for some reason and when we came close to it, this "man" next to me turned the steering wheel in that direction of where the fence was missing and then slowly grabbed me and held my arms so I couldn't grab the steering wheel and we went over the side. That's when I started screaming and woke up. Whoever this "man" was wasn't scared about dying at all. I keep thinking of who that could have been.

These are just my feelings Angie..
Sometimes, the way we rationally interpret events that happened in a dream when we're awake is different to how our dream-selves see them in the moment. What can seem later like a scary dream may just be our subconscious trying to communicate symbolically.
How did you-in-the-dream, not you now, feel about the man?
Do you remember if your feelings actually changed toward him as events progressed?
Darkness may indicate obscurity, something you can't, or don't want to see clearly.. a road may indicate time passing, a journey/task, progress.. being driven may mean that some events are outside your control.. a steep mountain may indicate the amount of effort you are exerting in your life at the moment.
You're not actually going to die because of a dream, no matter how scary, so there's no need to hold on to that fear you felt at going over the cliff.. I'm wondering if the man restraining you means just ride with it, it's gonna be ok in the end..

 

[Spiller]

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That's a powerful dream there, and a protective one too. I'd be happy to have such a dream to be honest.

I find the emotionally intense dreams are always the most interesting

 

[Harrison]

The intense dreams are always the most interesting

Totally agree, hence why I thought GC might prefer a private answer

 

[Grumpy Cat]

I find the emotionally intense dreams are always the most interesting

I didn't feel close to the "man". I just kept hoping he knew how to drive because I now remember there was snow too. Evidently he didn't know how to drive in the snow.

 

[AsheSkyler]

Grumpy Cat here. We are having fantastic weather here in Kansas and I thought that my decreased energy and mood was secondary to SAD. However, I'm still tired all of the time and sleeping more than usual (about to take another nap cause I just can't seem to keep my eyes open). I'm wondering if it is not due to the new job and the class I'm taking now.

Something happened at work this past week with a co-worker with my same name (Angie) and I'm actually dreading having to go to work tomorrow and running into her (she works every weekend like me). I keep getting calls to work extra and right now I really don't have the time to work extra, but I'm feeling guilty by not doing so.

I hate this class I'm taking. Absolutely hate it. It's actually a full time job to do this class. Spring break is this next week, but we have a term paper with articles we have had discussions over and that stupid game of Diplomacy we have been "playing". We have to tie the game together with what we have discussed in the articles and the book. The paper is worth a considerable amount of points and what needs to be done is not really clear to me and what is more important I don't care. I have no interest in this subject. I have no doubt that I will come up with something, I always do, but I would rather just go to bed and not think about it. We also have another big test the same week the paper is due. The tests are hard in themselves. I have no energy and I just want to go back to sleep. I started retaking my vitamins in case it could be that. I wish I could just forget this damn class and do fun things like knitting. Do you guys get this, or just me - Miss NT?

All makes sense to me. I'm a terrible procrastinator over bad classes and it can bring me down. I also get extra crabby when there is that one pest I can't get rid of.

I also get random bouts of tiredness that don't seem well combated by vitamins, exercise, or even the weather. Maybe you just need a mini-vacation? You have been under a lot of stress lately.

 

[Tia Maria]

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That's a powerful dream there, and a protective one too. I'd be happy to have such a dream to be honest.

Is it just me but I so want to reach out & very gently & softly high five this little guy with my finger?!! I also want to place a kiss from my lips to my finger to his little nose. So cute I can't stand it.

 

[Tia Maria]

Grumpy Cat here. We are having fantastic weather here in Kansas and I thought that my decreased energy and mood was secondary to SAD. However, I'm still tired all of the time and sleeping more than usual (about to take another nap cause I just can't seem to keep my eyes open). I'm wondering if it is not due to the new job and the class I'm taking now.

Something happened at work this past week with a co-worker with my same name (Angie) and I'm actually dreading having to go to work tomorrow and running into her (she works every weekend like me). I keep getting calls to work extra and right now I really don't have the time to work extra, but I'm feeling guilty by not doing so.

I hate this class I'm taking. Absolutely hate it. It's actually a full time job to do this class. Spring break is this next week, but we have a term paper with articles we have had discussions over and that stupid game of Diplomacy we have been "playing". We have to tie the game together with what we have discussed in the articles and the book. The paper is worth a considerable amount of points and what needs to be done is not really clear to me and what is more important I don't care. I have no interest in this subject. I have no doubt that I will come up with something, I always do, but I would rather just go to bed and not think about it. We also have another big test the same week the paper is due. The tests are hard in themselves. I have no energy and I just want to go back to sleep. I started retaking my vitamins in case it could be that. I wish I could just forget this damn class and do fun things like knitting. Do you guys get this, or just me - Miss NT?

How are you doing today Miss Grumpy Cat? Spring is coming.

 

[Aspergirl4hire]

Is there any reason you don't want to start a thread discussing your paper? Or a blog post?
(Call it research--it will be-- and then the problem becomes converting the thing into the paper. Publish what sort of knowledge folk should have to be useful to you, and let respondents throw some things on the table. If nothing else, you won't be alone with it.)

 

[Spiller]

I didn't feel close to the "man". I just kept hoping he knew how to drive because I now remember there was snow too. Evidently he didn't know how to drive in the snow.

I had a dream last night with thick snow on the ground and two legged creatures dropping from the sky and running past me.. just ignoring me.
I realised this morning that, for me, the snow represents how bleak I feel at peoples' cold indifference toward me - at least as I see my situation in the real world, while the darkness indicates my inability to see my way forward in my current situation.

 

[Grumpy Cat]

I had a dream last night with thick snow on the ground and two legged creatures dropping from the sky and running past me.. just ignoring me.
I realised this morning that, for me, the snow represents how bleak I feel at peoples' cold indifference toward me - at least as I see my situation in the real world, while the darkness indicates my inability to see my way forward in my current situation.

To me that dream would mean that instead of raining cats and dogs, it's snowing two legged creatures possibly because of colder weather and that Big G had to compromise because He ran out of a supply of cats and dogs.

I think I'm really getting good at this dream interpretation stuff, don't you?

 

[Tia Maria]

All makes sense to me. I'm a terrible procrastinator over bad classes and it can bring me down. I also get extra crabby when there is that one pest I can't get rid of.

I also get random bouts of tiredness that don't seem well combated by vitamins, exercise, or even the weather. Maybe you just need a mini-vacation? You have been under a lot of stress lately.

procrastinator ... Me too. My worst fault. Ugh. Procrastination makes anything harder, although I also get into the adrenaline rush of deadlines.

random bouts of tiredness .... Depending on your age, could that be hormonal? (Those blasted hormones!)

 

[AsheSkyler]

procrastinator ... Me too. My worst fault. Ugh. Procrastination makes anything harder, although I also get into the adrenaline rush of deadlines.

random bouts of tiredness .... Depending on your age, could that be hormonal? (Those blasted hormones!)

Mine is definitely hormonal, but not age or gender related. I has a gland lazier than me!
That makes my ears itch incessantly.