Hazelle
Active Member
Greetings!
I'm an early 30s female recently diagnosed with Aspergers, though I knew this to be the true from the first time I heard about it a few years ago. Like most others, I've struggled significantly throughout my lifetime, always feeling like I saw things differently from others.
I've been in and out of therapy since childhood, sometimes traveling hours to see specialists only to receive diagnosises that never really told the whole story and never 'fixed' me. I lost faith in therapy for a while, since they'd just expect me to push myself harder to get over my crippling social anxiety, find full-time work, stop my annoying habits, pop some anti-depressant/anxiety pills, etc. I knew I was smart and ultra dedicated to my areas of interest, but translating this into an adult life has been quite a journey!
Hearing a professional who specializes in the autistic spectrum tell me that the things holding me back were due to how my brain was wired at birth has been an incredible relief. I've always been behind the timeline imposed on society to get their act together and be an adult (finished college late after dropping out, didn't find a career until recently, struggled with relationships both romantic and platonic). It makes me feel like less of a failure for not adhering to what the rest of the world expects and like I could get a handle on things if I embrace my differences instead of always hiding them.
I've also been reading more about aspergers since receiving official word and everything just makes sooo much sense! It's like this this this it's all me! I'm so used to people NOT getting it! I'm so used to feeling alone even when I'm surrounded by other people. And for lack of many real friends right now, it would be nice to be a part of an online community that gets it too.
So hello hello! :wavespin:
I'm an early 30s female recently diagnosed with Aspergers, though I knew this to be the true from the first time I heard about it a few years ago. Like most others, I've struggled significantly throughout my lifetime, always feeling like I saw things differently from others.
I've been in and out of therapy since childhood, sometimes traveling hours to see specialists only to receive diagnosises that never really told the whole story and never 'fixed' me. I lost faith in therapy for a while, since they'd just expect me to push myself harder to get over my crippling social anxiety, find full-time work, stop my annoying habits, pop some anti-depressant/anxiety pills, etc. I knew I was smart and ultra dedicated to my areas of interest, but translating this into an adult life has been quite a journey!
Hearing a professional who specializes in the autistic spectrum tell me that the things holding me back were due to how my brain was wired at birth has been an incredible relief. I've always been behind the timeline imposed on society to get their act together and be an adult (finished college late after dropping out, didn't find a career until recently, struggled with relationships both romantic and platonic). It makes me feel like less of a failure for not adhering to what the rest of the world expects and like I could get a handle on things if I embrace my differences instead of always hiding them.
I've also been reading more about aspergers since receiving official word and everything just makes sooo much sense! It's like this this this it's all me! I'm so used to people NOT getting it! I'm so used to feeling alone even when I'm surrounded by other people. And for lack of many real friends right now, it would be nice to be a part of an online community that gets it too.
So hello hello! :wavespin:
