Old memories that refuse to leave me.

[Metalhead]

Every time I think about this, I think about the release of liquor.

When I was 12, my aunt thought it would be funny to coerce me into acts of bestiality. Shortly after that, my mother demanded I went to a family gathering she was going to be at after I made I clear I wanted to avoid her. At that gathering, I immediately went into a side room to avoid my aunt. My aunt decided to start crying crocodile tears and claim I just called her the c-word even though I did no such thing. I was then forced to hug her and pretend I was cool with her after that because my mother believed what she said then.

Years later, I told my mother what my aunt did. My mother replied to that by saying she read a scientific study about people who believed in all their hearts and souls they were sexually abused but that the abuse never actually happened.

I would rather die than live with memories like this.

 

[Metalhead]

Seriously, everybody else in my family is talking about how sad and unhappy my aunt is even though she failed as a parent and is an unrepentant child molester. If her unhappiness is so vast that it excuses all of her behavior, perhaps she should consider euthanizing herself.

 

[BrokenBoy]

Hey hey! Your fam is cray cray!

 

[Mr. Stevens]

Seriously, everybody else in my family is talking about how sad and unhappy my aunt is even though she failed as a parent and is an unrepentant child molester. If her unhappiness is so vast that it excuses all of her behavior, perhaps she should consider euthanizing herself.

It is horrible dealing with people like that, who know how to present themselves. Whatever their level of horribleness. People constantly buy into my mom's sob stories and self-pity. It never occurs to them that someone who is always such a victim is probably not telling the truth. And that if someone's life were really that bad, they wouldn't talk about it so easily.

 

[Misery]

My mother replied to that by saying she read a scientific study about people who believed in all their hearts and souls they were sexually abused but that the abuse never actually happened.

.....what the heck

 

[Metalhead]

I apologize for my momentary lapse into self pity.

 

[MadFit]

.....what the heck

Sounds like a misogynist view to me.
No wonder women who are genuinely victims are frightened to step forward

 

[Mr. Stevens]

^^ We all need to vent

 

[MadFit]

^^ We all need to vent

Is this in response to my post?

I just find the comparison made to be offensive. That’s all.

 

[Mr. Stevens]

Is this in response to my post?

I just find the comparison made to be offensive. That’s all.

No, it's a response to Metalhead. We just posted at the same time

 

[MadFit]

No, it's a response to Metalhead. We just posted at the same time

Oh the post above me, sorry, my bad!!

 

[Judge]

Probably my biggest problem right now. For whatever reason I too continue to look back at some bad things that happened to me. Mostly having to do with failed relationships.

Things I can't seem to shake and recalling them just isn't particularly healthy. Leaving me quite sad at times.

Sometimes some lyrics say it all:

 

[Metalhead]

Yeah, my sleep has been crap for the last few months. I know I cannot change the past and I know I cannot change my family. I know I am dealing with a medical issue that is deepening my depression. I had a moment of weakness when I started this thread. Wallowing in all of this does not help since I cannot change any of it.

 

[Thinx]

Sorry you went through all that. Have you considered group therapy or Co counselling which is a relatively cheap way to work on issues further. It might help you progress further with this so that it's not still haunting you so much, as well as have more support.