Mr Faramoose
Well-Known Member
Hello to everyone out there! I'm going to try and tell you about myself in an interesting yet short[ ish ] way.
I am 22, from england, and a man. Well I'm called a man, but I have autistic moments often, at which times I'm more like a 10 year old child than an adult. I'm not talking about an adult acting childishly, I mean my brain seems to go backwards, like when I am stressed or trying to talk to people, I become my autistic self instead of my adult self. Maybe that makes sense to some of you. Anyway, my family has a history of mental health problems, and recently autism has been diagnosed. My younger brother is moderately autistic but not severe, my mother shows strong traits and her father likes nothing more than to visit his bees and paint his six perfectly arranged sheds in the garden. He hates socialising. I attended normal school from age five, didn't really have any friends, got into trouble aged 10 when I climbed on top of the boys toilets roof, then jumped off and informed the head teacher that I was attempting to make friends with the pigeons as I had no other friends. Secondary school, aged eleven to sixteen, horrible time. No friends for three years, a boy in my form group asked me one day ''Allright?'' and I was so clueless about what to say that I had to actually walk away, go home after school and ask my parents how I should respond. I got bullied a lot, and aged 15 and 16 I started to become very antisocial, drinking beer with my paperound money, not going into school, and when I did go to school I was often drunk. It made being around other people a lot easier. Anyway, after leaving school, I had some jobs. Jobs I was quite expert at getting, I could speak well to the potential employers, but when it actually came to doing the job, I could not stick in that same adult mode I had acted like to get the job. Almost like my mind would go backwards to an even younger teenager because I was anxious/stressed about the new job. I believe I acted like people I had seen on TV or met in real life, almost like I copied how they acted normally so I wouldn't get seen as weird by the boss. I could pull it off for half an hour or so, but it was mentally exhausting. I went through at least 17 jobs in under three years, finally ending up starting a nightshift at tesco, breaking down mentally as I realised I couldn't cope with work. My doctor referred me to a mental health team, then to a psychiatrist, who finally diagnosed me with aspergers. I have a strong dislike for bright lights, I sneeze everytime I go out from a dark room to natural light, I love being alone and feel no desire for contact with people, I just don't get lonely! I have obsessions, top gear, cars and motorbikes. As my psychiatrist said,
''He interuppted a conversation we were having because he heard the noise of a motorbike outside and went into enthusiastic details about this, what kind of motorbike it would be and how the exhaust system differred to other bikes''.
I think most people when they first meet me think I am very normal because of course, autism/ aspergers doesn't show through physically, so when I try to talk to people or I am forcibly introduced to people I can easily find myself doing something childlike without realising. I remember once I was out with my grandmother in town, some of her friends came up to her to talk, and as I didn't know them I jumped up onto the ledge of a bench and started to humm the theme tune to Mr Bean to myself. It was only after I saw the odd looks the ladies gave me that I realised I had done something wrong. Apparently it's very rude to just walk off when meeting people, but I didn't realise that at the time, in my mind, I didn't know them, so I should just do my own thing until they went away. I'll stop writing now but hello everyone!
I am 22, from england, and a man. Well I'm called a man, but I have autistic moments often, at which times I'm more like a 10 year old child than an adult. I'm not talking about an adult acting childishly, I mean my brain seems to go backwards, like when I am stressed or trying to talk to people, I become my autistic self instead of my adult self. Maybe that makes sense to some of you. Anyway, my family has a history of mental health problems, and recently autism has been diagnosed. My younger brother is moderately autistic but not severe, my mother shows strong traits and her father likes nothing more than to visit his bees and paint his six perfectly arranged sheds in the garden. He hates socialising. I attended normal school from age five, didn't really have any friends, got into trouble aged 10 when I climbed on top of the boys toilets roof, then jumped off and informed the head teacher that I was attempting to make friends with the pigeons as I had no other friends. Secondary school, aged eleven to sixteen, horrible time. No friends for three years, a boy in my form group asked me one day ''Allright?'' and I was so clueless about what to say that I had to actually walk away, go home after school and ask my parents how I should respond. I got bullied a lot, and aged 15 and 16 I started to become very antisocial, drinking beer with my paperound money, not going into school, and when I did go to school I was often drunk. It made being around other people a lot easier. Anyway, after leaving school, I had some jobs. Jobs I was quite expert at getting, I could speak well to the potential employers, but when it actually came to doing the job, I could not stick in that same adult mode I had acted like to get the job. Almost like my mind would go backwards to an even younger teenager because I was anxious/stressed about the new job. I believe I acted like people I had seen on TV or met in real life, almost like I copied how they acted normally so I wouldn't get seen as weird by the boss. I could pull it off for half an hour or so, but it was mentally exhausting. I went through at least 17 jobs in under three years, finally ending up starting a nightshift at tesco, breaking down mentally as I realised I couldn't cope with work. My doctor referred me to a mental health team, then to a psychiatrist, who finally diagnosed me with aspergers. I have a strong dislike for bright lights, I sneeze everytime I go out from a dark room to natural light, I love being alone and feel no desire for contact with people, I just don't get lonely! I have obsessions, top gear, cars and motorbikes. As my psychiatrist said,
''He interuppted a conversation we were having because he heard the noise of a motorbike outside and went into enthusiastic details about this, what kind of motorbike it would be and how the exhaust system differred to other bikes''.
I think most people when they first meet me think I am very normal because of course, autism/ aspergers doesn't show through physically, so when I try to talk to people or I am forcibly introduced to people I can easily find myself doing something childlike without realising. I remember once I was out with my grandmother in town, some of her friends came up to her to talk, and as I didn't know them I jumped up onto the ledge of a bench and started to humm the theme tune to Mr Bean to myself. It was only after I saw the odd looks the ladies gave me that I realised I had done something wrong. Apparently it's very rude to just walk off when meeting people, but I didn't realise that at the time, in my mind, I didn't know them, so I should just do my own thing until they went away. I'll stop writing now but hello everyone!
