I have been having issues this year related to philosophy and religion. This world is so hard to understand. I have moments where I just fall apart sitting on my bed with my face in a towel for like an hr or until i just fall into instant sleep, waking up a few hrs later, slightly better. This just happened but I didn't blackout I decided to come on here and get it off my mind. I just sit there weeping repeating to myself "who, what, when, where, why, how." I believe there is absolute truth, but i cant find it because there are so many lies in this world. I have so many questions and no answers and if I do get a potential answer I question it too. How do you know what to believe when so many people believe the opposite,100s of answers for one question and only one is correct and I have 1,000s of questions.
I also struggle with meaning of life, what is the point of living. I have seen all those who accomplish great things and are rich yet are depressed, unhappy and some kill themselves. I have seen poor people miserable hardly getting by. What is the point of doing good to other, or doing evil to others, or nothing at all.
I feel like im trapped and going nowhere in life. I have no true goals, what is the point of goals if im just going to reach the goal and be unhappy. I have desires, whats the point of working for those desires when I get them ill just want more. I don't know what to do with my life when it comes to career. My current job isnt cutting it, i cant survive on minimum wage. Sure i like my job because its my special interest....i work at a farm with plants but it doesnt pay the bills, im still living with my parents. Part of me wants to go to college but the other part doesn't. To be honest college wont get me a job it will just give me debt which I will work my ass off just to pay off and be in square one without a good job going nowhere in life. I would love to go for the knowledge though.
I also feel like crap all the time so never feel like doing much and am worried that if I get another job that it will be awful because i have foot issues and standing to long hurts.
All of this really depresses me. I just want to stop the questions or get answers that I can know are true. Im sick of the meltdowns all this causes.
I also struggle with meaning of life, what is the point of living. I have seen all those who accomplish great things and are rich yet are depressed, unhappy and some kill themselves. I have seen poor people miserable hardly getting by. What is the point of doing good to other, or doing evil to others, or nothing at all.
I feel like im trapped and going nowhere in life. I have no true goals, what is the point of goals if im just going to reach the goal and be unhappy. I have desires, whats the point of working for those desires when I get them ill just want more. I don't know what to do with my life when it comes to career. My current job isnt cutting it, i cant survive on minimum wage. Sure i like my job because its my special interest....i work at a farm with plants but it doesnt pay the bills, im still living with my parents. Part of me wants to go to college but the other part doesn't. To be honest college wont get me a job it will just give me debt which I will work my ass off just to pay off and be in square one without a good job going nowhere in life. I would love to go for the knowledge though.
I also feel like crap all the time so never feel like doing much and am worried that if I get another job that it will be awful because i have foot issues and standing to long hurts.
All of this really depresses me. I just want to stop the questions or get answers that I can know are true. Im sick of the meltdowns all this causes.
