eatmontana
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Hi! I usually avoid social media and online interaction (except Pinterest, the refuge for the socially awkward obsessives) because apparently I am doing it wrong. I hate this part (introductions and initiating relationships) but am hoping I have at long last found my "tribe."
I was dx with "something like hyperactivity" as a child, treated with special diets and a really bad school psychologist. My sibs were both pretty severely DD, so since I was very smart, my bizarre behaviors were chalked up to stress and anxiety. I do have bipolar as well, but ASD explains so much that has puzzled shrinks. I also have a potentially life limiting very severe GI disorder.
I was informally diagnosed with a communication processing disorder by a former boss who was an audiologist with a developmental focus. The diagnosis was solid, but we never finished the more specific testing and our agency wasn't funded for adults, so it is not in my medical record. Most of my life, though, I have been described as "kinda retarded, but super smart. And she's hilarious when she isn't freaking out." Not my favorite description, but I try to really focus on other's perceptions.
Ack, I am rambling...I am working on an official diagnosis...luckily my past work with folks with disabilities brought me in contact with the right people and the kids' agency is going to help me find resources and fight with Voc Rehab (VR won't serve me because they know me and I was very successful in my professional work with them and worked really, really, really hard to socialize right there... so now they think I am just a hypochondriac).
I desperately need help improving my social skills. I read and read stuff for Aspies but it's soooooo hard to remember everything... between controlling my face, remembering back & forth, trying to find the other person's interests (apparently lots of people don't have them or they consider reality tv, facebook, and top 40 music actual interests...when i mean comparative religion, ethnobotany, evolutionary biology, feminist theory, good stuff like that). I love the people in my life, but we frustrate each other. And I still don't understand why people can be completely illogical and unable to correctly do their jobs, but it's okay if they are nice ??? It just doesn't make sense...honestly, I am not sure NTs are suited to a technological future where science and accuracy are essential.
Ok, if anyone has any suggestions, websites, etc., I would really appreciate the guidance. I have a feeling the diagnostic process will be long and aggravating, but after a recent dangerous meltdown and elopement incident (i am 44 and i literally ran away from a party at midnight and walked 5 miles home, much of it on the highway. Amazingly i was not arrested or assaulted but i am in danger of hurting myself), i know i have to get help.
I would normally go back and correct, edit and sanitize this, but I am hoping it's ok to relax a bit here.
Heather
I was dx with "something like hyperactivity" as a child, treated with special diets and a really bad school psychologist. My sibs were both pretty severely DD, so since I was very smart, my bizarre behaviors were chalked up to stress and anxiety. I do have bipolar as well, but ASD explains so much that has puzzled shrinks. I also have a potentially life limiting very severe GI disorder.
I was informally diagnosed with a communication processing disorder by a former boss who was an audiologist with a developmental focus. The diagnosis was solid, but we never finished the more specific testing and our agency wasn't funded for adults, so it is not in my medical record. Most of my life, though, I have been described as "kinda retarded, but super smart. And she's hilarious when she isn't freaking out." Not my favorite description, but I try to really focus on other's perceptions.
Ack, I am rambling...I am working on an official diagnosis...luckily my past work with folks with disabilities brought me in contact with the right people and the kids' agency is going to help me find resources and fight with Voc Rehab (VR won't serve me because they know me and I was very successful in my professional work with them and worked really, really, really hard to socialize right there... so now they think I am just a hypochondriac).
I desperately need help improving my social skills. I read and read stuff for Aspies but it's soooooo hard to remember everything... between controlling my face, remembering back & forth, trying to find the other person's interests (apparently lots of people don't have them or they consider reality tv, facebook, and top 40 music actual interests...when i mean comparative religion, ethnobotany, evolutionary biology, feminist theory, good stuff like that). I love the people in my life, but we frustrate each other. And I still don't understand why people can be completely illogical and unable to correctly do their jobs, but it's okay if they are nice ??? It just doesn't make sense...honestly, I am not sure NTs are suited to a technological future where science and accuracy are essential.
Ok, if anyone has any suggestions, websites, etc., I would really appreciate the guidance. I have a feeling the diagnostic process will be long and aggravating, but after a recent dangerous meltdown and elopement incident (i am 44 and i literally ran away from a party at midnight and walked 5 miles home, much of it on the highway. Amazingly i was not arrested or assaulted but i am in danger of hurting myself), i know i have to get help.
I would normally go back and correct, edit and sanitize this, but I am hoping it's ok to relax a bit here.
Heather
Spelling baffles me the most, and it is sooooo slow to have to look up words, and frustrating cause its the same words as last time. So I just throw up a bunch of vaguely close letters and hope for the best.
